My Depressive Introduction by blue.fish

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· @blue.fish ·
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My Depressive Introduction
Hi steemit,
I understand the first thing to do after having an account is to introduce yourself to others. Here is a short introduction of me.

Good day to everyone here, I am Blue Fish. I understand that I should post my real self and photo here to introduce the real me to all of you, however there is a reason of why I am not going to do that. I am joining steemit mainly to post my feelings that I have been bottling up, feelings that I find it very difficult to tell anyone I know therefore would like to keep my identity as Blue Fish just in case any person I know stumbles upon steemit. One reason I chose steemit is that none of my friends know about this website thus I feel safer to open my bottles here. Please do understand my reason of not posting my real self, I am Blue Fish here, 23 year old Asian Male.

I have acknowledged this little friend of mine that has been living with me for a few years, he's called Depression. In these recent years I have been ignoring this friend of mine and refused to acknowledge his existence, which only makes him grow bigger. I knew that I am suffering from depression from a few years back but whenever I am feeling depressed, I just put it into a bottle and bury it inside me, I have never talked about it with anyone. I have a very nice family that will support me whatever I do and some really good friends that care about me including a girlfriend. As time goes, these bottles keep on increasing more and more to an extent I am finding it very heavy to carry around with me, but I just don't know why, I am unable to open up myself to anyone I know, friends or family. I do feel the urge to seek professional help to a psychologist/psychiatrist but is very unsure about it, therefore I am making this steemit account to pour out my bottles one by one hoping it will reduce the burden in me. I think I can do it if it's with complete stranger from across the world.

Brief introduction here, I will pour out bottles when I am really burdened and need to loosen up a little in future posts. Here is a picture of me. Have a nice day everyone.

![Untitled.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmYxoReBRYpQ6WMZBcC4cMZj35e9XbxufitX735aWUFwHy/Untitled.png)
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@inalittlewhile ·
Let it out. It has to go somewhere. I didn't do the picture thing either. If people don't care to follow my writing or check out my website, I might as well not be real to them anyways.
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@blue.fish ·
Thanks bro
Nice catch on your prof pic there
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@inalittlewhile ·
Thanks. That was a fun one! :)
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@borepstein ·
Welcome to Steemit!
I hope here you find other firends, so that little friend is not the only one influencing your life.
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@blue.fish ·
Thanks bro
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@hiyo ·
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@hanen ·
Hi and welcome to steemit. I hope that you like it here and spend nice time on the platform. Good luck! Very nice photos :)
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@blue.fish ·
Thanks Hanen
Goodluck to you too
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@hanen ·
Thank you :)
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@lopezdacruz ·
Welcome to Steemit! Look forward to your contributions. Good on you!
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@blue.fish · (edited)
Thanks lopez
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@tommithomson ·
Hello and welcome :)
thanks for sharing.
have a good time here ;)
best regards @tommithomson
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@blue.fish ·
Thanks Tommi
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@snowpea ·
Feel free to share your thoughts here. Steemit has a non-condemning atmosphere and you don't need to feel bad for feeling bad. :) I've dealt with such issues in the past as well.  I hope you find the support you need. If you want anyone to talk to I'm snowpea in Steemit chat too. Welcome!
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@blue.fish ·
Thanks Snowpea
Nice to know you
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@snowpea ·
You as well :)
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@gauravgpt60 ·
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