Sorry for your loss Brian.  

I'm been through it a number of times.

Sorry to hear that Brian. We had one of our own here @adept pass away and while I didn't know him , I heard his voice everyday in steemspeak and it was odd to hear he was gone just like that.

Hey man, new to your channel but wanted to send my condolences. I stopped and said a prayer when I noticed your headline. 

Thank you for being open about how you are managing these changes as you are learning how to feel into the spaces that leave us so vulnerable. 

May you and your loved ones be blessed, @brianturner. 

*(And if there is anything I can personally do to be a friend, please hit me up. I'm on discord. 💘)*

Sorry for your lost Sir @brianturner. May God’s comfort be upon you and the family.

I'm sorry for your loss, i hope the healing isn't lengthy. its always hardest for those left behind :o

Sorry for your loss man. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family as you endure this sad time. Be strong Brian..

Losing is a sure thing, because someday we will also go, and when the time comes for us, make sure we are not left with remorse. Be patient sir..

Hey Brian, this is a really touching video and topic. I am sorry your grandma was suffering for the last while. That's so tough. But, i agree with you, it was a huge blessing you had time to be with her in that last month. To make special memories and to say thank-you and good-bye to her. I really admire your bravery and realness in sharing. This is a blessing for me, and i will take a bit of time to share my current state in hopes too of offering myself opportunity to process and to let go of my grieving. Which i have been praying for an opportunity to do and kinda feel like this is it. 

Yesterday was the anniversary of my dad's death. It's been 16 years since his untimely passing. Oddly enough, his name was Brian. He was 54. He died tragically in a car accident. I was away traveling on my own in Costa Rica at the time. A piece of my soul is still there actually. It was the most tragic time in my life. Being torn away from freedom in paradise to return to bitter cold and completely foreign territory to face my dad's death. (Literally it was the coldest winter in Saskatchewan history that March) I had just received a severance package from a great job and was in my early 20's. Was dating a man 12 years my senior. I returned to the airport, he was there to pick me up. My instincts screamed 'keep walking' to leave this man. I was in such turmoil, and consumed by my mind and emotions. Really, unprepared to process the grief and unknown territory ahead of me that i did not heed that inner wisdom. I was pregnant within days. 

And, lived a life of turmoil and a fuck load of struggle for the next 15.5 years. Until, last summer. I was given a new lease on life. A second chance. My prayers were answered. I was rear ended in a high speed collision in the middle of the summer. Multiple breaks to my spine and other bones. Traumatic brain injury -- a world of hurt. Being completely dependent for many months. The man, now my husband, and father of our two children could not handle my needines in such a compromised state. It was very traumatic again, and, i had to leave him. Again, an answer to my prayers. Due to the abusiveness of the relationship, i do not know how else i would have left. I wouldn't have.  

Fast forward 8 months to now. Through my dedication to my health, and yoga over those 15.5 years, i'd built a foundation that was supple, strong and capable.  Miraculously, i will be able to heal and to transform my life from all that. Granted, there's lots to heal! But, it's remarkable the progress with the right environment & community. 

My dad taught me to 'be myself' to do what i want. Not what everyone else thought/ expected me to do.  Sadly, social pressures in childhood took me far from myself and, i had to wade through the brainwashing of being material and debt minded. But, at least i have done that work! And, am free of it now.

I wonder, just wonder, if more people just were allowed to show emotion, as you have here, and share in these critical moments --how much more peaceful life could be?  

Thank-you for creating and holding space. I really believe overall, life is beautiful and good. And, that is my message and the reason why i did not exit this life last summer. To live! And, to share these teachings. 

Blessings & Gratitude, 
Your Grandma, my Dad -- they are so proud of us. 

Love, Jill. 🐇🐶🐱💙💚💜

  

Take heart dear because death is real and inavitable. All we need think about now is ourselves and to make sure we get fulfilled in life and to end well.

sorry for the loss man

I'm not subscribed to you but you are in my sub feed. How can I get you off? I'm not interested in seeing your content.

Death is tragic, keep your head up. Went through something similar not long ago.

I think it is very impressive that you made this video and I am sure it was helpful to grief and process. I agree that crying is a good thing and that it is just one of many things where society has created a weird opinion about. This whole thing how a man (or a woman) has to behave is ridiculous.

I don't know what your world view is but mine is that we are all infinite spiritual beings on a physical experience. It is weird that how we feel seperate from the rest of creation and how we forget about where we are coming from. But in reality (at least in my view) we are all one and we are all permanently connected. I have no clue what happens to us after death but it is certainly part of the bigger thing. Makes me cry a little bit myself but I do believe that this is all very wonderful and that we are blessed to have this experience. Death is just a transition into a different state of energy. It's all pure love.

Lot's of love from Costa Rica!