Little Thoughts by chinyerevivian

poetry · @chinyerevivian · Apr 20 '19

$0.64

Little Thoughts

<center>![photo-1489846986031-7cea03ab8fd0.jpg](https://img.whaleshares.io/wls-img/chinyerevivian/0afdb7eb0fc5236406f80dae7c2f33a5a3ea7e01.jpeg)</center>
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<center>Today, I thought about the quickest way to die
How to end everything swiftly, without pain
Not in old age
Not in illness
Rather, here and now</center><br>

<center>Today, I thought about slitting my wrist 
Watching blood draw irregular patterns on the floor 
Till eyes glaze over
Till lips stop quivering 
Till I hear the voices no more</center><br>

<center>Today, I thought about tying stones to my feet 
Filling my pockets with the tiny pieces 
Standing on a cliff watching the waves beckoning 
Calling my name softly 
Whispering to my ears</center><br>

<center>Today, I thought about taking the pain pills 
Swallowing all till I forget 
But I refrigerate spoons instead 
Holding them under my eyes 
Masking the dark circles on my skin</center><br>

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[<sub>Image Source</sub>](https://unsplash.com/photos/moK7ZiiquG8)

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