Sounds like maturity, surrender, acceptance, and self respect, too.  I have a real hard time with anxiety, its just how I am wired. But I have been looking back on the last year or so as well, and while I do tend to overthink still, and get myself into stupid overwrought mentalities, I don't have panic attacks any more, and I do feel largely in control of my life.  Some things are difficult still, but each day is a new one, and I am always experimenting to find what will make me the happiest.  And in that way, I feel like my world is mine... and that I just have to fine tune some of my habitual responses, and I will find the calm I am seeking.  This is a cool post because it kind of fascinates me that you can be so chill hahaha.  Thanks for sharing the insight.

Interesting perspective. People say I am patient also, I also don't really see it.  I tend to view patience as more an external thing. I have always been able to wait for other people to say what they need to say and am ok generally with people not getting to the point quickly...which is sometimes useful when reading Steemit posts. If you are patient with others sometimes the relationship can be very one sided but usually that patience rubs off and their is a mutual respect and patience there.

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It really sounds like you are wrangling with some truths. It’s impressive that you are willing to be so “real” and that you’re willing to describe everything you are processing on your journey. I wish you well!

Interesting musings. i think patience is about quelling your ego and being present, without looking for gratification. 

Yes, patience is having a long term goal and knowing the universe has your back. 

Your conclusion would be the opposite of patience. for example i have recently studied counselling at university and it requires great patience to be fully present with and focused on a client.

I repeatedly read your posts @clayboyn! I was trying to digest well your perspective in life. Actually, I am impressed on your coolness. Patience is a virtue, a proverbial verse, which I think I need to improve. 

For sure, you are a worry free person. Because, I do believe that what gives stress is on how we react to every incidents or situation or  to things.  Thanks a lot for sharing this. It made me think of how importance patience is.

For a while now I've had the idea of writing a post called "the 7 deadly virtues" and Patience is one of them. It's exactly as you say, we are taught young, that patience is a good thing and that patience brings about what you want... but that's not even logical! when it comes to dealing with people, showing them that you are patient person will only make them take advantage of the fact that you can wait, and they will delay delivering. I say this as someone who has done that on numeral occasions... One's deadly virtue of 'patience, leads me to commit the sin of procrastination. 

Of course overly demanding impatient people are also annoying... in my work i find that people that demand things without any flexibility, are also terrible at rewarding your effort to appease them, because to them everyone is 5 minutes late. 

But your idea of patience goes a little deeper than that, because you are also ting it with your perception of time, priorities and self reflection on who you are... I agree with others here who said that you seem more 'chill' and nonchalant rather than patient... 

This comment is in danger of becoming a post so I'll bail here :))) but not before pointing at how dope the images in this post are. kudos!

There's a time and place for everything.
Patience has it's moment. 
In the context of 'achieving things' that you want patience has little to do with it the actual 'achieving' of it.
If you were raised with that as a notion then it's been twisted the wrong way around.

From martial arts and attaining a black belt, amidst a myriad of other achievements in my life, I've noticed a pattern.
And this tends to be the order of things.
First is the inspiration, vision and hunger.
Then the impulsion that drives the action towards the vision.
It has to be a consistent, expanding, focussed action.
Then patience is required, usually only when certain milestones are not achieved.
That is when patience needs to kick in. 
Patience is not inaction.
It's merely the psychological relaxing of the frustration that arises from not getting what you want in a timely fashion so that desperation or bitterness or self-doubt don't kick in and thwart the attainment of the vision.

But patience has other contexts too.
As a parent, you must learn the tight-rope balancing art of patience, but that's still mostly to do with the psychological relaxing of the frustration that arises from not getting what you want (mostly less noise and more peace of mind. Lol!) in a timely fashion so that desperation and resentment  don't kick in.

Anyway, you hit the nail on the head with
>Perhaps patience is really just about knowing our own priorities and not being overly focused on anyone or anything else

That is key. 

Patience is like being like water. Malleable and flexible so that nothing can touch your inner equilibrium. 
Any heavy shit thrown your way just sinks to the bottom. 
Any tumultuousness that stirs up mirky emotions can become clear again if you're still (patient) enough inside to allow the sediment to sink down.

I love though-provoking pieces like this...
Thanks mate...

There's a time and place for everything.
Patience has it's moment. 
In the context of 'achieving things' that you want patience has little to do with it the actual 'achieving' of it.
If you were raised with that as a notion then it's been twisted the wrong way around.

From martial arts and attaining a black belt, amidst a myriad of other achievements in my life, I've noticed a pattern.
And this tends to be the order of things.
First is the inspiration, vision and hunger.
Then the impulsion that drives the action towards the vision.
It has to be a consistent, expanding, focussed action.
Then patience is required, usually only when certain milestones are not achieved.
That is when patience needs to kick in. 
Patience is not inaction.
It's merely the psychological relaxing of the frustration that arises from not getting what you want in a timely fashion so that desperation or bitterness or self-doubt don't kick in and thwart the attainment of the vision.

But patience has other contexts too.
As a parent, you must learn the tight-rope balancing art of patience, but that's still mostly to do with the psychological relaxing of the frustration that arises from not getting what you want (mostly less noise and more peace of mind. Lol!) in a timely fashion so that desperation and resentment  don't kick in.

Anyway, you hit the nail on the head with
>Perhaps patience is really just about knowing our own priorities and not being overly focused on anyone or anything else

That is key. 

Patience is like being like water. Malleable and flexible so that nothing can touch your inner equilibrium. 
Any heavy shit thrown your way just sinks to the bottom. 
Any tumultuousness that stirs up mirky emotions can become clear again if you're still (patient) enough inside to allow the sediment to sink down.

I love thought-provoking pieces like this...
Thanks mate...