Dear Diary: I Just Cannot Wait For My Dialysis Again by cryptopie

health · @cryptopie · Jan 22 '19

$3.06

Dear Diary: I Just Cannot Wait For My Dialysis Again

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I will be going to the bathroom in a few minutes because I want to feel clean and relieved before going to the dialysis. It feels like I am a balloon that is popped after dialysis and of course the feeling of clean inside is really something to consider, the feeling is just like none other.

I had been at dialysis for 17 years now and really it is just a feat in itself, I am a living trophy of success considering that most patients doesn't survive fir more than four years, but me I really do not know why I am still alive and kicking but maybe I have a fate in life that I have to fulfill and then my final capitulation.

It really sucks to survive this long because of the complications. If only I had the tip-top healthcare like some people in the world have then I maybe would not end up with a very hard to manage and expensive to care about medical condition.

I am always praying that someday I would triumph over some of these obstacles in my life, my goals to at least feel like I am normal inside which I know is too far to dream about but this life of ours just is dependent sometimes in the power of money. Money makes you speak, makes you do things beyond your expectations. So I am saving up to use money to make impossible things to happen.

But anyway it is that time again that I will go for my dialysis, another time to endure that blood pressure crash and I am hoping it will go again smoothly so that I would achieve the best possible clean for my blood and also get relived for being waterlogged.

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<center>__I Will Get Cleaned Again Thanks Be To God__</center>

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@pelvis · Jan 22 '19

Hello friend ..its good to be fresh, 
Your dialysis will go smooter and it enhance enough confidence for you..take care

👍 cryptopie, pelvis

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@obest · Jan 22 '19

God have a reason for keeping you alive so that you can inspire others and be a testimony for the world to see. I wish you a successful dialysis today @cryptopie

👍 cryptopie

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@sergiomendes · Jan 22 '19

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Only today I have found You and read some of your blog posts with Your story. And let me tell You that You are freaking amazing and an inspiration and a warrior and we all have so much to learn from You ♥️ hopefully Your dialysis goes well today. Keep strong, keep being amazing and inspiring all of us. 😁 I am excited to read more of Your posts.

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@cryptopie · Jan 22 '19

Thank you @sergiomendes I just trying to fight to survive, it is a hard life that I am living due to these medical burdens on my back but I am just fortunate at least I have the steem community to support me and I am very happy because of that.
God bless you.

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@sergiomendes · Jan 23 '19

Yeah health and the human body are just so fragile. We for real should all be more aware of it and we are not. And I say you are amazing because as you said even with this medical conditions you haven't picked to have You are out here proving everyone that is possible to overcome even the most difficult things that life throw at us 😁

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@eliliana · Jan 22 '19

You will get well soon, friend. Continue to pray. God loves you.

👍 cryptopie, penghuren

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@joalvarez · Jan 22 '19

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Just like @sergiomendes said, you are absolutely amazing warrior and an inspiration to all of us.

Hope your dialysis go smooth and like you said there is a purpose for you to be here with us and we are glad to have you here with us.

God Bless, dear friend.

👍 poisoncontrol, goldenchild, justperfect

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@knowledge1 · Jan 22 '19 (edited)

I've been away for a long, long time. Just logged in after ages, and the first person I wanted to see is you. How are you holding up?  You may be overwhelmed by it all, but you're a really strong person. Wishing you all the best with your dialysis. God bless!

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