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<center>__My Guts Hates Me Bad__</center>

I do not know if I can eat my breakfast this morning because I am having an upset stomach, a nausea which lead to vomiting what a minuscule amount of food and medicine which is in my stomach this evening, it was the side-effect of my Parathyroid medicine and maybe the small amount of food thta I took contributed to my nausea. I do not have any urge to eat and I am getting hiccups already and these hiccups are going on for sometime now. I really do not know what to do because my Parathyroid medicine is already taking a toll on my health although I needed it so that I won't get a worse case of Leontiasis.

I am between a rock and a hard place and my situation doesn't allow me to choose. I think I must have my parathyroid checked to see how it functions lately despite of what I am doing to control it. Control is the painful word here because my medicine is not curing me despite the spending and physical and mental endurance that I am doing about it.

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<center>__Between A Hard Place And A Rocks Leaves Me No Choice But To Cry__</center>

It was already better for me after my appetite had improved after my blood's hemoglobin levels and red blood cells count had improved as I can eat normally and in great amounts. So much so that it makes my body a bit warmer because of the calories that I am taking plus my use of the toilet had increased because of the increased food that I am taking.

But my enjoyment or good appetite for food had been cut short because of Cinacalcet, the sole drug that is used to treat the secondary hyperparathyroidism condition that I have. Now I just have to see how it functions because of my strict diet and supplementation, it now have no cause to get hyperactive considering the drug that I am using and the said diet.

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<center>__My Strict Diet And My Phosphate Binder Alone Should Have Tames My Parathyroid Already__</center>

So I am really frustrated on what was happening to my situation because I couldn't do anything about it unless I achieved my goal of partial parathyroidectomy nothing so significant that I needed won't happen and I am just so patient about it already.

I hope that I am not venturing into what they call comorbidity which just means that the doctors cannot do anything about my situation because I have this other medical condition. But I think that a way around it is to sign a waiver so in that way the hospital or doctors have no responsibility anymore into what will happen if any bad thing would happen. That is my only hope because I have to really undergo a drastic measure otherwise I will just sink slowly into a quicksand which is my fear and actually what was happening already. I needed much prayers, all the prayers to those that are concerned about me. May God bless you all. 

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<center>__I Am Still Fortunate That Somewhere Around The World People Are Still Trying To Help This Sinking Ship Which Is Me And I Truly Appreciate Such Love__</center>







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