I take 2-3 clonazepam and I sleep like a baby, I don't even dream. I don't recommend it to anyone though.

Good day
I would like to recommend that you learn meditation.

Find a group, or a teacher that teaches meditation.
Find one with a person you resonate with.

Meditation is learning to quiet the mind.  That is the first step.
Then, when the mind is quiet, you can hear yourself.
And then find yourself.

Hello :) 
What you say you experience there is a good thing, really. You begin to see yourself objectively. 
Now, you either choose to victimize yourself - and go on a downward spiral, or you decide to take the hard way up and do something good about it - discover who you really are, beyond the "garbage" in your mind.
I wish you the best of luck!
There's no straight recipe to find out who you really are. Everybody will tell you what to do based on their own experiences - but only you know what will actually work for you. And if you don't know yet, you're the only one who can discover it. 
Some meditate, some do Tai Chi, some travel the world... some knit or do pottery or go minimalist. 
All I can say is try to do things you like or feel attracted to, even if this will seem to be - for a while - nothing more than a series of trials and fails. And try to hear your own voice, despite the noise in your head. 
If you persevere, you will succeed, eventually. Enjoy the ride! :)

I feel you man..

I'm bipolar as well and I'm starting in on a low spell here soon I feel.

It's impossible to be happy and content all the time.. SO let that go right now.. You will have periods in your life that suck more than others.. It's just how the game works.

Mania is a gift and when you're on a roll you're on a roll. Irregardless of how shitty you feel you must continue on and wait for the mania to once again give you fuel to dare to dream..


I understand you because I live this every day. The mania is amazing but leaves you feeling empty and depressed.. My only advice to you is this.

<h1>Chin up, It will get better</h1>


Also, on the poles that aren't you.. Here is the fun part.. They are you. :)
It's just a matter of mixing them together and you find your character. <3

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