Some would say..."don't poke the bear".

it sux, steemit life.
Someone called it learned helplessness when i was talking to them.
i have realized let alone understand what the system is and why it why it is.
it makes me cry............
and somehow that is learned helpleness or something.

its a hard pill to swallow, im not saying your wrong and he is right, im sure he knows what i think after a long time of fighting. taking a whale on heads on will only end up with you at a rep of -9 like i was. it took 6 months to dig out of that hole and it wasent even the first time i was made negitive. wasent the last either he came back a couple times to remind me at any moment he could put me back in the negitive.

in the end im still guessing on his motives and really wish i could sit down with him smoke a bunch of weed and drink some liquor while munching some good food and talking honstly about what the goal is. 

idk, its fucked imo. i dont think you should be getting flagged and at the same time i dont think he should be -17. in my opinion you both shoulld have have the right to voice your opinion no matter how much i or anyone else disagrees with it. 

im drunk as shit btw, also im accepted im alcholic and the first week was no big deal but now im back to waking up with a vodka bottle under my pillow. if this is just jibberish im sorry.

 i seen your reply and a reply from him and shut down. i avoided the computer for a day and that was wrong of me but i seriously have trouble walking the razors edge always trying to walk on egg shells so i dont do what the hands that feeds deems as taboo. 

i really hope im not digging my own grave right now, at the same time i think "bernie" knows i know alot and have alot of the peices of the puzle that everyone is missing. i dont want a war though, i want talk and to make my enemies my friends. all my friends i disagree with stuff, but we over look that as ecceptance that we are all human and have way more in common then in differnce. 
all of a sudden i feel like a house ni*gger. 
:/
in not trying to shill fo massa, i ummm. 

he has the power, reasons matter not. fact is he has the power, not even ned or dan can take it from him. 
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accept that even if you dont like it, or dont but i have. 

I reacted the same, flipped out and in all honesty think he is being counteractive to his goals but i digress. it's understandable to be mad, he was mad when he was getting flagged too. its the natural response imo.

still he has the power. he isnt going to give a reason either for why he does what he does, if your like me thats the hardest part to accept. idk im just rambling and ranting at this point prolly.

the only thing i have found that works even a little is to just go back to doing what you were before your ordeal with him and try to move on. 

Im sure he knows at some point enough people will have stayed where when he finally breaks the straw on the camels back everyone will jump in all on the same day posting non stop links to evidence and basically killing the platform and him with it.

i hope it never comes to that as i would rather the problems with steemit get fixed so everyone can use it and it can be the best ever.

idk, sry bernie (at some point u should give me a name to call you cause using your real name is not somthing ima do unless your using it and caling you rando or bernir or ect its kinda idk.) if this upsets you im trying not to but still be honest with others.

doodle, sry if this isnt something awe inspering and whatnot. right now we just need to post and grow steemit, if we let it die its all pointless and should have already moved on.

besides.....
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