Love. So beautiful yet so powerful. It has the power to consume one's sanity. Love can make someone strong, or weak. Love can mean happiness, or pain.
Love. What *is* love?
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# The Pain
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A few years ago, I was still in my high school days. In my 8th grade specifically. I moved to a new school to try out regular schooling.
> It was because since I was home schooled, I'd like to try out regular schooling just to check it out if it's okay.
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Just to make sure, my mum asked her teacher friend to put me in the same section as my cousin was, just in case I needed help. And then came the schooling days.
School was great on the first day, the introductions of ourselves started, and the other normal school stuffs also took place, like the teacher's introductions, required things to use, first lessons etc.
But it all started on the day we had to be assigned to our seats.
> Specifically it was the MATH subject (Mental Abuse To Humans). My greatest enemy.
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It was just the second day of the school days and it was time for the arranging by seats. Some teachers like by names while others wanted to arrange us by height.
> How rude. I was near the front. Please don't ask why.
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It was first the boys.
> Ugh.
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Then the girls.
Then, a girl who wears glasses and had a ponytail was assigned to sit by me.
> I can't say the name, but we can call her *Amber*? Maybe Maybe...Continuing...-_-
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At first I was like, "Oh okay, sure sure, it's cool it's cool.". But then, I started to find her cute. Then pretty, and beautiful, and gorgeous, and...
I fell in love with her.
>Okay guys, let's not call it "love" yet. Too sudden XD.
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Sadly, since I was new and all. I was actually very shy back then. But, then we had some small talks, sadly those small talks were just that until the end of the 2nd grading. Until one unexpected day when our MAPEH teacher told us to do a role play about anything at all. Our group was chosen and she was in the group too. Yay! What's more is that we were assigned as the main characters. Yay!
> Maybe teacher did gave a topic but sadly I forgot. hihi, please bear with me.
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So, we thought of something to role play.
> I did, actually. Group activities are often made by one person. Sadly that person was me.
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And I thought of a very cute story.
> Flashback Flashback. Awoobledooblewoobledoo! (attempting to create flashback noises)
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Once upon a time, there lived a young lad named, uhh, Andrew. Yeah, Andrew.
And Andrew was just transferred to a new school for his senior years.
> A weird start. Juniors role playing a Senior High scenario. Probably should have done more thinking about that. Continuing...
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As Andrew was just about to go to his first class, he bumped into a girl and accidentally made her drop her books. Whoops. So he helped her and such. Did weird and awkward introductions like this...
"Oops, h-hey, s-sorry about that." Andrew stuttered.
"No, i-it's okay. It's fine now." The girl nervously answered back.
"I-I'm Ander-Androsen-Andrei-A-Andrew." Andrew stuttered very badly.
> Actually made the class laugh. Accomplishment! XD
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"I-I'm Nicole. N-Nice meeting you but I gotta go." She stuttered nervously as she hurried out of the scene.
And then, Andrew continued on to his first class, while Nicole ran to her friends who were secretively watching them.
"So, who's the boyfriend?" Ashley teased.
"Out of all the cute guys out there, why *him*?" Sabrina chimed in.
"Guys, it's nothing. We just bumped to each other. I barely even know him." Nicole slowly explained.
"Gurl. If I were someone looking for a guy, I'd chose Mark." Sabrina said as she cocks an eyebrow.
"Mark Grey?!" Ashley snapped.
And as they were speaking, Mark came into the scene.
> Cue hunk music! Where is the music?!
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"Hey ladies, hey Nicole!" Mark said with a creepy grin.
"H-Hey Mark." Nicole said shyly.
"How's it shakin'? Mark asked.
"You're so handsome!" Sabrina couldn't hold it any longer.
"Ohh, Thanks." Mark winked.
"I-I, gotta go to class." Nicole said as she rushed out to her class.
> Hmmm, Okay okay. Keep going.
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-A Few Days Later.
Nicole was sitting alone on the park when...
> Cue hunk music! *music plays*. You know who it is...
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"Hey Nicole. Always lookin' pretty huh?." Mark said as he sat beside her and put his arm around her.
"H-Hey Mark. I-I was just about to go somewhere." Nicole said as she stood up.
But then, Mark stopped her.
"Where are you going? I just got here." Mark said with a smirk.
"S-Sorry b-but I got to go." Nicole said as she tried to pry off of his strong grasp.
"C'mon Nicole, I'm sorry about the other day. Please stay." Mark started to plead.
"I'm so sorry but I really need to go." Nicole said as she pulled arm out of his grasp.
"Fine! Just leave. I don't want to be with girls like you anyway!" Mark screamed.
"W-What do you mean?" Nicole asked.
"I don't want to be with girls who always can't give me at least some time to explain myself!" Mark said angrily.
"W-What?" Nicole still didn't understand.
"I don't want to be with a girl who wants perfection!" Mark angrily shouted as he bursts out.
Then, Nicole started to cry silently.
> Guess what? *munches on popcorn...
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"A-Are you okay?" Andrew suddenly asked as he sat beside her.
"No." Nicole cried silently.
"Uhh, I have a burrito. Want one?" Andrew asked stupidly.
> That's my boy!! That's my boy right there!! Woooh!!
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Nicole smiled and took the burrito.
Munching on it while her tears fell down.
But Andrew wiped them away.
"It's okay Nicole. Y-You don't have to cry no more. I'm here" Andrew said reassuringly.
> And thus, that was the start of a brand new relationship between the two. Until next time, here only every Friday, At- Wait, this ain't no commercial.
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So yeah, that was the play. And since then, Me and Amber were starting to get closer all the more. Bit by bit. Until we were actually besties. Great right? Nah.
It was on early February, when I confessed to her. After knowing her for a full 8 years. Little did I know, that that was the last time I would ever talk to her again.
After my confession. She just never talked to me. Like not even look at me. Whenever I'd greet her, she wouldn't even look. Like I wasn't there.
It continued on until the end of our 8th grade. And still. She didn't talk to me.
It pained me every time I see her. I had to cry myself to sleep every night, for 2 weeks. All my efforts for her to talk to me didn't work. And since then, I blamed myself for the entire thing.
We were very close friends. But now, we are strangers.
More than strangers actually.
> "We were strangers at first, and then we became the closest of friends. But one mistake made us go back to strangers again. Even more than strangers." -Guru Eli
# Acceptance
It was actually a really LONG time ago. And currently, February is coming up and this whole experience came to mind so I've decided to write about it.
I already accepted this long ago.
> Actually no. I was very heart broken for a VERY long time...XD
Nut yeah, I did accept it now...XD
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But what's done is done. I actually learned a lot from that experience...like
What love can do to you once you've been caught.
The true meaning of "emotional pain".
And that your true friends will always still be there in times of distress.
I had a lot of friends who supported me, and I thank that they did.
But, now? It's cool. Though Amber still doesn't talk to me, though I don't seem to exist in her life anymore, I'm still doing good after all that.
A heart break may hurt, but that pain won't last forever. You just gotta give it time because as they say, "Time heals everything." right?
Nowadays, I still see her, but without the talking. I'm good. Yeah I am.
I'm still young, I have time. And there are still a LOT of other girls in this world anyway, all I have to do is wait.
> And hopefully, when the time is right, you'll come out of nowhere and into my life. Sadly, I just haven't met you yet.
-Michael Buble
# Conclusion
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Well hope you guys would like this Teardrops post and all. I had just a quick refresh on part of my life that made me who I am. I will NEVER forget that experience. Thanks for reading anyway as well. Until next time every Friday! Here on..- Again with the advertisements..XD
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