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I went out and got more medicine for edema the other day, and have been out for the count since then. You can read about [my epic journey at fitinfun](https://steempeak.com/esteem/@fitinfun/ridiculous-roots-i-did-not-trip-over-for-kus-knee-s-contest). Now, three days later, I am just drinking fluids, taking pills, sleeping and showering. It seems like I am sweating out as much as I am peeing. 

I'm less swollen, and the skin on my lower legs is coming off in sheets. I'm rubbing it off in the shower and then using coconut oil to take care of it when its dry. 

But my legs are still leaking fluid from the pores and looking like they want to move on to having some infection. I have to keep up with this. Luckily my gut is smaller now so that I can actually see and reach my legs. 

I looked at my face in the mirror and I am really puffy there. I hope this means the fluid is leaving me from wherever it can. 

This post is my entry for the [Looking Back / Looking Forward Contest](https://steempeak.com/hive-166850/@wakeupkitty/contest-concurso-looking-back-look-forward-mirando-hacia-atras-mirando-hacia-adelante-2-30) by @wakeupkitty for CCC. 

This week she is asking if we think changing ourselves is the way to solve most of our problems. Yes, I do feel that way. Blaming others or circumstances for anything is a quick way to failure. It's only when we rise to challenges that we overcome them.

My [weight loss book](https://www.amazon.com/Your-Weight-Loss-Journey-self-esteem-ebook/dp/B00EHHMA0A/?tag=viglink23646-20) is all about the excuses that keep us fat. I wish I had gotten over my excuses sooner than I did and hope others will follow my lead. It was only when I stopped making excuses that I could lose weight. Then it turned out to be easier than I would have ever thought. 

I need to leave Malaysia for my next visa trip in about 4 weeks. I thought I would have a lot of accomplishments since returning from STEEMFest and the last trip, but instead all I have done is be sick and try to recover.

All of this is my fault. I let myself get too run down. "Never again" is what I say now and hope I stick to my guns. This is why I am still in bed 20 hours a day, taking medicine, and not going out for supplies. I need to be much healthier than I am now to succeed on my next journey. 

My photo for this post is some yummy free and unlimited condiments they give you for your meal at a Korean BBQ place near here. I hope to get back to this restaurant soon when healthy and chow down to my heart's content.


#### What I do on STEEM

@fitinfun

- freewrite daily with @mariannewest
- Minnow Tips
- Photography
- Travel

@fitinfunfood
- Food and ccc contest posts
- Tasteem restaurant reviews
- @pifc contest entries

@bxlphabet

- dApp, tokens/tribes and gaming review posts
- dpoll- STEEM and lifestyle questions
- BitcoinMalaysia playing card posts; coming soon!

#### My most recent summary of Minnow Tips is here:
[You CAN Succeed on STEEM](https://steempeak.com/esteem/@fitinfun/minnow-tips-you-can-succeed-on-steem)

These tips will help you if you are new and struggling on STEEM. Tag me in any comment, and I will help you if you ask me to.


#### Find me on Discord: 
fitinfun#2249

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