I was thinking about that time, <center> *...Blood pressure rises...*</center> Feeling ridiculed for my truth, Which you said you wanted, But that was a lie, Now I'm bad and you hide, Oh how I've experienced this one thousand times, I was thinking about that time, <center> *...Blood pressure rises...*</center> When I looked into your eyes, and realized you sought me out, Then seeds of doubt, yeah I know what this is all about, Just a lonely old one who's blood becomes colder, I fight it, I do.. But things still come unglued, I think and I think and I think and I think, feeling my grip tighten harder and harder on the sink, The water fills the glass, I've seen this before, Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... I was thinking about that time, <center> *...Blood pressure rises...* </center> And my glass cracked, No really... It did... ![20200614_163642.jpg](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/futuremind/ZJrzrYex-20200614_163642.jpg) I was thinking about that time, And realized I did you a favor, <center> *...I chose to suffer...*</center> <center> Now you shouldn't need to do that to another.</center> --- This poem was influenced by the above photograph. I was thinking about a few different things, things *of the past*, and feeling stress. Apparently I was feeling more stress than I even realized, because the glass in my hand broke while I was thinking. The entire experience was symbolic to me. In a moment of stress, I was reminded by this broken glass of how little the past matters. Thank you for stopping by, I hope you're all having a wonderful day! <center> Much love, @futuremind </center> https://steemitimages.com/0x0/https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/493408527801647104/493409447398473738/future_3.gif
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Something tells me she (she?) went on to do it again. Interesting poem. I like the structure, my blood pressure may have gone up a tad too. "I did you a favor" is a great line. I often think of the favors people have done for me that at the time I did not appreciate. I imagine some think that about me too.
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Thank you for reading and reflecting my friend. >Something tells me she (she?) went on to do it again. Very perceptive. I have a pattern of attracting abusive women who lie and play the victim. So it's more like... *all of them..* I know that some of them went on to repeat abusive behavior, but once my heart is broken I tend to completely detach/distance and inwardly reflect. >I often think of the favors people have done for me that at the time I did not appreciate. I imagine some think that about me too. That is probably a much more productive and mature way to think, than in terms of *"favors I've done for others that they did not appreciate."* I've been single for 4 years *(with the exception of a recent short lived online relationship that went disastrously wrong, me being the bad guy of course.)* At a certain point one starts to wonder if they are delusional.. One starts to wonder if *they* are the problem and no one else. If I let go of my simple desires, simple things that I want *(while everyone tells me I should be happy to have no woman in my bed, and just be happy with myself...)* I just feel like it's all bullshit, and if I allow the bitterness to consume me, I will become the monster who raised me.
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Oh dear. That does not sound good! When I wrote my comment I removed "and probably you made the same mistake again too." Didn't want to be a bummer, but we make the same mistakes over and over again until we learn the lesson. I'm much older than you are, and I am very happy that sex is no longer a huge driving force for me. So many problems! I have enough of those, thank you. I need someone to recount the little things in my day with, and thankfully I have two daughters to do that with. A couple of good women friends to chat away with, and I am good. It makes life much much easier to be happy with being single. You have that to look forward to, because if I were younger I would be thinking very differently.
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Very beautiful poem, i like it. It is expresing what you feel.
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