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> <sub>I've heard from people say that chocolate cheers the spirit and give you happiness. They say that it has an effect on the body that could be compared to falling in love, that magic, that feeling of lack of concern.</sub>

 Yes, that's what they say, and I've become a bit addicted to eating chocolate lately.

I have heard stories —perhaps too much weird— about people who usually hear voices, who usually claim the existence of internal "demons" that torment them daily either to harm them or to remind them that life is more filled with misery than it is. It's not my case, I don't believe in demons, cus' being agnostic has led me to be a little more skeptical with these issues, science has led me to know that energy is an accomplished fact in reality that affects us in this existential plane and that we may have something superior to us that can mold that energy, but if we spoke about demons, I could confess that I have only one, one that can be the worst of the damned and most evil...

<center>Me.</center>

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If I could tell you my story —very, very summarized— it would start like this:

> <sub>Once upon a time, there was a little boy who had no childhood, because he knew "the real world" very early... </sub>

It is difficult to accept that for anyone —or at least for me, I suppose— let's get going.

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> <sub>Usually this little boy used to have a smile on his face and a gladness that seemed to show that in his life there was nothing but moments of joy and solemn happiness.</sub>
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> <sub>He had two favorite superheroes since he was barely conscious, they took care of the little boy day and night without hesitation, without conditions, they just made sure that the boy kept smiling as usual.</sub>

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But now, do not the "bad tongues" say that depressive people usually have the best smiles? Believe me when I tell you that this isn't more real because of not everyone experiences it; if only they could put on those filthy and worn shoes and feel what it is to always have the feeling that life is escaping from you and around you there is nothing more than cold... hate... that rancor... emptiness... and nothing can satisfy, no appetizer, no person, no moment because we fall back into the same vicious circle, it is simply difficult.

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> <sub>The light of his eyes was extinguished in many opportunities, one of them was once in a mission entrusted to his heroes; they were called to fight against a very terrible villain that threatened the little boy's house. That was a very powerful and very difficult villain to fight but his heroes always tried... until, one day, they lost.</sub>
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> <sub>The power of the child's heroes had vanished, there was not a trace left of it, the villain eradicate them and the child's heroes disappeared.</sub>

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Yes, those heroes had quite epic names... they were called "Mom" and "Dad"; the villain had a very terrible name  —and a very famous name— we knew him as «Divorce».

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 > <sub>Motivated by the imminent victory of the villain who eradicated his heroes, the little boy changed, he dedicated himself to giving the world what they could never give him, a love without conditions, a support without asking for anything in return, just a hand.</sub>
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> <sub> There were many times when the little boy tried to make the world a better place, full of people who did good, confronted reality at a young age and understood that situations change... and the people too.</sub>

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Many times it is too difficult for me to accept my defeats, in every sense, whether in a sports, academic or emotional competition. In any terrain where I see myself bent, the impact of the fall tends to hurt as if I fell twice.

One for the expectation, another for the disability.

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> <sub>That little boy fell in love with the best side that people show, that side full of love, hope, positivity, and peace, that "instinct" of solidarity that is born in some humans when they see others in trouble and bet for that reason many and many times even knowing that the battle was already lost before beginning to fight.</sub>

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Should I be called crazy for that? Is the problem the fact that I want to get the best and most human side of people and blindly bet on that?

Each question weighs me more, every effort that I make to find the answer simply opens more unknowns; for each door that I open and manage to cross, two or three more appear and the cycle begins again.

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> <sub>Once, the little boy sat down to think about the fact that he was losing everything and maybe, at one point, only one question would remain in the air... <em>"What else could he lose?"</em></sub>
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> <sub> He had already lost his heroes, he was alone and it was time to start a new battle in which the little boy entered with a lot of courage but he would never know what would come later because he was never prepared for it...</sub>

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That battle had a name quite feared by many, praised by those who have won in it, despised by those who in its name have lost everything... the people called it "friendship".

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> <sub>It never cost him to make "friends", because, despite the first things that started to go wrong in his life, he always maintained a good mood and a positive mind, first of all, he didn't have to bring to the street his personal problems.</sub>
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> <sub>As time went on, he was forming strong bonds, he gave everything for those people who had that particular name... "friend".</sub>
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> <sub>That name started to rumble between his thoughts and became another of the superheroes that he was writing down in his small list. He had already lost his first two, maybe this time these superheroes could do the job.</sub>
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> <sub>And so began more and more battles, each time new villains came and unfortunately, the heroes couldn't defeat them all. Despite having very good results in the first moments fighting side by side, another villain emerged that made the new heroes of the little boy disappear.</sub>

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Yes, one of the worst known villains, the people called him "betrayal" and he had several henchmen who helped him fulfill his evil ends in the world. Among many, one of them always stood out, that one who almost had the title of <em>villain</em> but didn't reach that point because his acts were not so malignant, that assistant was known as "interest".

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> <sub>There seemed to be no hope because the little boy was running out of options, he was still trying to get through that long journey —or perhaps short, depending on who analyzed it— and trying to deal with each new villain that appeared.</sub>
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> <sub>And there, as at 15 years old, he met a new superhero, who might be one of the most powerful he would meet in many moments and facing many villains.</sub>
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> <sub> This new superhero was called "woman", but only when she didn't have so much power to fight next to the little boy. When she reached a more than sufficient amount of power, her name changed, because she decided to call herself "girlfriend".</sub>

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Hopeless romantic since that first time I tasted and knew the most beautiful side of love I must admit, I could not help it, it felt so good and I didn't know the risk that this entailed...

Nor what was hidden behind it...

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> <sub>The little boy never knew that although this superhero was very powerful, possibly at some point she would be defeated because it had already happened with the previous heroes in which he had placed the confidence to fight side by side with any villain.</sub>
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> <sub> 9 months the superhero kept his powers, it was too incredible the level of power that this superhero had because she was one of those who kept the little boy happier and protected, until one day, a couple of villains arrived and they faced them. And sadly, the strength and the link that they had were not enough to overcome them.</sub>

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This couple of villains were the most difficult to accept and to heal after the wound. They were known as "infidelity" and "replacement."

No one deserves to go to sleep wondering <em>"what did I miss?"</em> Or <em>"what did I not do?" </em>; Nobody deserves to feel that it was not enough for someone to even delivering everything of itself, but as the society says to give you a direct placebo to emotions and "make you feel better": <em> that's life, isn' it?</em>

At that time I met the melancholy, who at one point in my life will have been —and possibly still is— one of the best writer's muses.

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> <sub>At that same time the little boy had another defeat against the most powerful villain of the whole universe and of this existential plane. The worst of the case is that this villain usually attacks people at odd moments of life and usually wins in almost all their battles, many people have beaten him, but the few who have done so have very interesting anecdotes to tell.</sub>
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> <sub>Either by luck, by force, by bravery, by anything, beating this villain is almost impossible tho.</sub>

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This villain could be classified as "the perfect villain" because it allows you to fight until he says, until he arrives and starts to battle with you or just when he disappears you without a trace in a moment of weakness. The people call him "death."

This villain beat one of my favorite uncles —the only one who really wanted me to be a musician—, which I considered more than a superhero, and like all humans, dealing with emotions of this nature can sometimes make you cross lines that can take you beyond the madness if you don't know how to walk in those ways.

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> <sub> The little boy was fighting more and more battles and the heroes were running out, each hero was leaving him alone because apparently, the villains were coming more and more powerful.</sub>
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> <sub> However, the little boy still maintained his temper and knew that at some point in his life he would meet some new superhero who would really help him to fight against any obstacle or villain that crossed his path.</sub>
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> <sub> Shortly after the last defeat, the little boy met a very elegant and refined lady, who introduced him to one of her most precious daughters and told him that if he decided to fight without thinking about what could come out bad in the way, she could help him any time he needed. She was not a hero, she was more like an assistant, but —literally— she changed the child's life, the battles didn't hurt so much anymore, there was a little more strength.</sub>

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This lady had a very nice name, when I asked her, she told me that the people called her "art". I really like her daughter when I met her, she told me that her mother named her "music". Until now, she's still my most faithful companion in the face of the most difficult torments that usually appear among the things that I usually live on a daily basis.

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> <sub>As time went by, the little boy grew up and was meeting several brothers of the same sweet lady who changed his life; a little sister of the daughter of said lady became very close also to the little boy.</sub>
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> <sub> Already one of the lady's daughter was the little boy's "right hand", but this daughter also wanted to help, wanted to support the little boy on his journey fighting against all the villains he already knew —and those who doesn't—.</sub>

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I liked that "music" sister quite well too and made me cope with many things that definitely if I told you right now with details this post would become something very tedious to read along. This sister was called "literature."

Shortly after having started to fight alongside "music" and "literature" I realized that all my life I was looking for superheroes to help me overcome the villains that appear and give freedom to the bad things that happen to you in life, and I had never realized an important fact...

Although at the beginning of this post I affirm that the greatest devil and —sometimes— the greatest evil of my own life and existence is me, I must also admit that I can be wrong... well, if you channel your skills to minimize your weaknesses and fight without losing the course...

<center> The true superhero ends up being...</center>

<center> Yourself.</center>

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> <sub> This is nothing more than a relief, because depression isn't something that is easy to deal with, some companions will always be needed, call it "art", call it "sports", call it "studies", we will need companions who help us to better perform our work of relief and liberation of pressure, so that one of the great followers of "death" never makes an appearance, because, once this is done, it is only a matter of time...</sub>

<center> Yes, I'm speaking about suicide, the worst "death" assistant...</center>

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