Terimakasih my friend, I love you! by jaynie

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· @jaynie · (edited)
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Terimakasih my friend, I love you!
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Silence is not always golden I have come to learn over the years and have been acutely reminded of again today as I have milled about my daily activities in the most empty and painful silence. Reflection, contemplation and so many memories have flooded my mind and heart. I suppose it has proven a poignant reminder that my heart does in fact still work. I should probably be grateful for that hey?

We are all so quick to take those around us for granted, not that I took you for granted but this is common practice and perhaps I am a little guilty of that in your respect too... and if it ever felt like that, I am eternally sorry for it was never my intent. You were always going to be there... you know?  - Mr. Invincible.

![image.png](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/jaynie/NIAgSGaM-image.png)<center> [PHOTO CREDIT: DEAN MORIARTY](https://pixabay.com/users/terimakasih0-624267/) </center>

I sat for hours today looking at the world through your eyes. I always tried to be the *one* person who did, I hope you know that. I stumbled at many points as I shared in these slices of your journey. So many questions that have filled my mind a little too late. Why didn't I have them sooner? Perhaps you would not have wanted me to ask - I suppose I will have to continue guessing, you always did like to keep a person guessing. You win :)

![image.png](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/jaynie/AfCtp3xX-image.png)<center> [PHOTO CREDIT: DEAN MORIARTY](https://pixabay.com/users/terimakasih0-624267/) </center>


I wish we had gotten down to compiling that poetry book you wanted to do with my moms art as the illustration, but as usual life gets in the way doesn't it. Why do we always allow it to do that? I used to attend my moms art classes, I don't know if I ever told you that. I know I told you that she painted, but I don't know if I ever shared that I "tried to". Not very successfully though... but the very first picture I ever painted was inspired by "The Tree of Life". I spent days looking for a rendition of it that appealed to my crazy personality so that I could "make it my own". I eventually found it and do you know what... apparently, so did you! I stumbled across the below photo in your collection and my heart stopped!

![image.png](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/jaynie/xmytDg6p-image.png)<center> [PHOTO CREDIT: DEAN MORIARTY](https://pixabay.com/users/terimakasih0-624267/) </center>


And this is a screenshot of my inspiration (top left) and then my own personal progress with the ***exact same version*** of the tree of life.

![Untitled.png](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/jaynie/ie8PIu9a-Untitled.png)

That painting hangs in my lounge to this day! I took this picture now to show you. You know well that I am a lover of symbolism and even though doing that painting has always held great meaning to me, now as I sit here in front of my laptop staring at it, writing this... it holds SO much more significance and will from this day forward, because whilst I always knew we were kindred spirits who shared a parallel world, this will forever be a daily revival of your presence... almost like you planned it. Did you?

![20191216_153428.jpg](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/jaynie/BtQUSI58-20191216_153428.jpg)

I have been drenched in symbolism today, perhaps it is serendipitous, perhaps it is the universe helping me to process all of this or maybe it is actually you. Earlier today I asked myself why I never asked you what ***Terimakasih*** meant and within minutes of that question flowing through my mind, it was answered by @gibic... amazing really, isn't it!

![image.png](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/jaynie/rheGDW5S-image.png)

I sat on my front porch yesterday, with salt water running down my cheeks enough to warrant an ocean contribution and yet, all I could hear in my head was your voice as crystal clear as if you were right next to me... ***it's ok Jaynie, it is*** I argued with you, telling you that it is anything BUT ok, but you just wouldn't shut up! Why are you so bloody stubborn! - Don't answer that, because you know I would not change you for the world.

![image.png](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/jaynie/c1lUm3Ie-image.png)<center> [PHOTO CREDIT: DEAN MORIARTY](https://pixabay.com/users/terimakasih0-624267/) </center>


I guess I am rambling now, but you don't mind do you :) there was always time for one more quote or one more song and you know what... today is no different... so let me share one that I just know you will love! In fact, I have probably shared it with you already - you know my memory is not the greatest especially after we have both enjoyed the velvet pleasure of red wine... but hey, who cares, nothing wrong with repeating good songs is there?! Nope, didn't think you would argue that one... so here it is then... and you had better have a come back.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqiH0ZSkM9I

Music makes everything better doesn't it! So does tea and toast, but tonight we are taking it easy with bangers and mash. Money, time and distance is no longer a problem so I hope you join us because I have made extra specially for you... and you know I hate wasting good food! Three days ago you said you wished you lived in my house and now you can. How cool is that! :) but you had better clean up after yourself ;)

Ok ok... it is wine time, so let's crack open a bottle of your favourite South African wine and then we can talk some more about  rainbows, rivers and the wind beneath our wings and crank up the tunes! And lest I forget... Terimakasih my friend, I love you!

![image.png](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/jaynie/U71jRjgQ-image.png)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pu7AR0-FRro

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***Until next time...
Much Love from Cape Town, South Africa xxx
Jaynielea***
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@rem-steem ·
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@jaynie ·
xoxoxo
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@fenngen ·
Gave me the shivers, beautiful words for a beautiful soul.
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@jaynie ·
Thank you. I am struggling... too much!
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@fenngen ·
It's ok, gotta feel it... A big hug!
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Much love๐Ÿ’›๐ŸŒณ

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@porters · (edited)
Beautiful to see such love for a wonderful human being!
Thank-you for sharing so we may have a few more glimpses of the man we knew as @wales!
Terimakasih!
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@carolkean ·
Out of sight but not out of mind - that's how I operate. 
This is amazing - you ask a question like this in your mind and somebody unexectedly comes out of left field with the answer. Serendipity gets my vote:
 > perhaps it is serendipitous, perhaps it is the universe helping me to process all of this or maybe it is actually you.
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@carolkean ·
Oooh but wait. Did your friend plant the seed in someone else's mind to answer that one for you. To let you know the separation is only "imaginary" or temporary (as New Age mystics and sages often suggest).
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@thekittygirl ·
Oh, my! this is so splendid, so beautiful, so...  perfect ๐Ÿ’–
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@joanstewart ·
Every so often someone touches our soul like no other, take care looking after cherished memories Jaynie.

 During quiet moments you will feel a comforting presence, time does not heal, it reveals more to us.
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@lizziesworld ·
A lovely tribute to a wonderful man.
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@detlev ·
In this busy days, many people forget to enjoy silence. BUT this is so important and helps to re-focus on the life.

Anyway, here is a !BEER from me to enjoy your life with that nice "Thank you" picture!
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@priyanarc ·
I wish I could express my words to someone.. Now I am thinking that ***Am I too much stubborn??***, maybe,  maybe not..
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@girlbeforemirror · (edited)
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Hi Jaynie
I have not been steeming lately, _I have been struggling .... too much._
I attempt to do those things that I would do and post, to constitute a day lived and validate the next, but I often leave them incomplete or posting them too proves challenging. 
I have written several opening rambles here and deleted and started over...
I have nothing that equates to what I want to express. I want to reach inside my chest and grab a tangible piece of myself and offer it up as testament to how @wales weaved his words, cutting through the nonsense that was the every day, to connect to the very soul of things.
I haven't posted but I have occasionally jumped online to peek at some inspiration.
To put forward my 2c worth and say hi. The connections are as real as any in my tangible environment, and I feel like a doorway is always there waiting.
I remember the first time I came across Dean's work. It was a remarkable trip down the rabbit hole, or rather in Mr Moriarty's case, a tumble out of bed and onto the ceiling. 
I attempted a response piece, and enjoyed writing to him. But who could keep up with such a mind?

You mentioned in a comment some reflections on the last time you spoke. Although you reflect on what you would have said if you knew, I believe you had a unique opportunity to know him. He had a talent for revealing his perspectives, observations and vulnerabilities in the subtext of cleverly constructed obscurity. These wonderful tales often dismissed as rambling are like a treasure hunt, with hidden layers of meaning and messages to be found if you took the time to read. 

I have come across this news by chance, and am finding it difficult to label my response. 
As I said I occasionally log in to connect, as you know my world is limited. I liked the parallels that wales held. As vulnerable as he was strong. Humble and bold. Sensitive and unapologetically impulsively wordy. Open and guarded all at once. 

I found myself needing to take the time to read and reread a fable about the favoured or feared nightshades, deadly or desired, and analyse the intended message. Then wondering if the joke was on me for reading to much into what he would then dismiss as nonsense, and then I'd again wonder if that was a challenge to try harder to access the enigma.
So if you my dear were considered a true friend, and had the opportunity to chat and truly know each other, then I believe you would have earned that trusted relationship, an important one.

One of the last times I was on the block, I did write him a message. I too wonder about it. Written 3 months ago, I have been in a world of my own this year. 
_**This is what I wrote x**_

> I never tire of your words. You are a magical person. I still remember the first time I discovered you. You had tumbled from the ceiling or was it from the floor to the ceiling? It doesn't matter, that is the beauty of your world. The ceiling a much more interesting and logically intriguing place to venture t'wards if one indeed does find themselves in a tumble. Anyone can fall out of bed and land on the floor, but your ceiling tumble is a potential gateway to endless possibilities. Please keep the adventures coming. I appreciate them more than you know. I think. But that is presumptuous of me to assume what it is you may or may not know. But if perchance you didn't know or perhaps forgot. You are magical and you are important. Life can feel void of magic or even solace, but I know I can always find shelter in the world you weave with words. A retreat to somewhere. A place not void of reality but content to accept it in all of it's absurdity and turn it in it's head to get a look at it from another angle. Sometimes that is all that is required. A shuffling of furniture so to speak.
Thank you.


_His response_

> You are most welcome and I'm glad you like what I write, I shall endeavour to carry on...


He left us a treasure trove of words, they are a gift that will aways be waiting for you to rediscover on the blockchain. In my mind they were never fully recognised for what they are, prophetic. He never self promoted his vast publications either. 

I'd like to say I knew him well. But I didn't really. But his insights into the agony and ecstasy of humanity had me feel like he knew me, and had me wish to truly know him better. 

Just as I didn't know how to start here, I find myself inadequate in signing off. 
I once again wish I could send you my heart. Or some worthy wit, insight or comfort. 
_So instead I have lifted this from his last post._

> I've been here for a very long time, and if I wasn't a survivor by now then I wouldn't be here at all; and if I didn't have wings how would I ever know how to fly... 
...I didnโ€™t know if I had change or was an eagle flying, but, please, Iโ€™ll go with you anywhere. So anyway, after I broke out, my light bulb didnโ€™t work, and the front wheel was almost flat, but, what the hell, I said, and ran off home before it got too dark.

<3
x
๐Ÿ‘  ,
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@dswigle ·
Perfectly @wales. I hope you made him put his plate in he dishwasher.  xoxo

Upped and Steemed

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@drakernoise ·
This was an amazing reading @jaynie...
I wasnโ€™t aware of your close friendship as, you know, my time is so limited that I barely keep with all the stuff going on. Iโ€™m also not much in Discord for the same reason.
I got to know slightly our friend but enough to feel he was a very special one worth to have close.
I got really surprised by your tree of life match but to be honest Iโ€™m quite used to the โ€œmagicโ€ of life and itโ€™s tricks nudging our souls...
For your record I will add here something that I found from the other day Innerblocks chat. It was him trying to get into lol... hope it makes you smile ๐Ÿ˜‰
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Big hugs over there โค๏ธ
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