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See who made it today. I’ve had beautiful experiences in the past and I sure have had horrible ones. As I write this, I don’t feel like it and that’s because my mood is a bit off. But then that’s me. Always allowing my emotions to get a better hold of me and doing things only when I feel like it. 
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I was sitting this morning reminiscing on what life has been in the past few months and my dear, it has been a rollercoaster of emotions with ups and lots of downs. Through it all, I discovered something (well not discovered but began to apply) that has helped me weather through my storm of emotions and has helped me get clarity while living a day at a time. What I learnt was to journal again. I began to document my feelings, the people who hurt me and the role I played in it. I was honest enough to state my mood but skipped the entire process of narrating how I felt and what caused it.

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Funny enough I wanted to express myself but lost the key to the lock where I tucked away sad memories. Never could bring me to write about these bad memories. So I took another approach. I learnt to say my affirmations and pray for peace. For me, my peace and sanity of mind are paramount. Whatever tries to take my peace I learn to stifle and move on. Let me give you an insight into how this works, I could keep interacting with you but mentally and emotionally I’ve left. What you have left are my robotic movements and interactions. 
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I’ve learnt to care deeply for people. That’s like second nature to me. So I will most likely treat you as human irrespective of what has been done to me. I often can’t fathom why I do this. I feel the reason might be because of my name EBELE which practically means mercy.

Another thing is that whenever I pray, I ask for peace. That’s all that matters to me that’s all I want. With my peace of mind, I can weather through anything. Asides from that I learnt the act of gratitude. Turns out I have a lot of good things to be grateful for. I started doing this and I realized that it was easy to forget all the good happening to you just because a few things didn’t go your way.