KafkA On The Couch, Ep. 07: DEPRESSION by kafkanarchy84

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KafkA On The Couch, Ep. 07: DEPRESSION
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**"Can't get the stink off, he's been hangin' round for days..."**

~Radiohead, "Just"
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# Some thoughts tonight on depression. 
Join me live. I'll be talking about what's happening with me lately, and what seems to me to be happening to the whole world. Depression is a weird thing. An ill-defined thing. But I think, nonetheless, it still can be beneficial to throw some verbal rocks at it now and then, and see what we come up with.

# ~KafkA


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***Graham Smith is a Voluntaryist activist, creator, and peaceful parent residing in Niigata City, Japan. Graham runs the "Voluntary Japan" online initiative with a presence here on Steem, as well as DLive and Twitter. (Hit me up so I can stop talking about myself in the third person!)***


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@parsie ·
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@sabbir1213 ·
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@rezamusic ·
nice brother @kafkanarchy84, FolbackπŸ˜‰
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@hermanlc ·
whether with a foul smell that makes you depressed
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@wa2qr ·
Depression begins with disappointment. When disappointment festers in our soul, it leads to discouragement.
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@stephen.king989 ·
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I can't remember where I read it, but I read somewhere back around September that the next little while was going to be really hard for a lot of us. I didn't think anything of it at the time but it turns out it was completely accurate. The last few months have been super hard for me as well - for a lot of the reasons you discussed. It seems, at least I hope it does, that we are all moving to something better and this is a process we all have to get through to progress. We all just need to keep pushing forward to strive for the something better that is coming next. 
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@kafkanarchy84 ·
Cheers, @stephen.king989. I definitely seems lot a phase shift of some sort. Maybe even a paradigm shift.
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@maxinpower ·
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Good to seeyou are taking your medicine 🧐
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@kafkanarchy84 ·
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From the a number one doc! ;)
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@nateonsteemit ·
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Eff depression. 

I've noticed a hopeful cycle though. A bit of mild biploarity is, I think, natural. Bipolar means it fluctuates between depressive and manic phases. The manic phases are awesome.

I'm just coming off of a depressive phase myself. Last week was a passionless meaningless time. Then this weekend has been full of production and progress. I barely posted last week because there was no point. 

I think I've linked it somewhat to diet and sleep. I've been eating like shit, not drinking enough water, or takitn my vitamins, and 4-5 hours of sleep a night isn't helping. 

Be sure and post the results of your manic phase. That's the times we thrive. B12 helps.
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@kafkanarchy84 ·
Can’t thank you enough for this comment. Your pattern sounds a lot like mine. I guess I had never identified those hyper-driven, productive phases as β€œmania.” This kinda makes sense to me, though. 

Cheers.
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@nateonsteemit ·
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My wife proposed the idea one day. She suggested that I may have mild bipolar disorder. She has a psycho-logic degree. It's not something I'll probably seek medical attention for as it's not physically detrimental. 

You're not alone bro. It's all about understanding it and learning to work with it. Somehow it's gotta be beneficial. Even when you feel less useful than a mattress lol
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@chelsea88 ·
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I technically have "major depressive disorder" but often wonder if some of these things i get depressed about is a result of me seeing things going on in this world factually rather than like the vast majority of non-woke sheep.
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@kaliju ·
Someone's getting closer to what can be described as enlightenment...going a bit deeper...seeing the complex patterns. Having compassion emerge without realizing it.... The bathroom. That was an enlightenment moment. Good talk, man. Labels...if we don't know what cold is without first experiencing it, how do we know it's despression that we're feeling...labels. Maybe there's another way to call depression, depression. What if it's realization and pausing for a moment and feeling humility in the grand scheme of things...but then we go back to our "non-depressed" state...Does this make any sense? Keep exploring, study this feeling and observe it without labeling it - it may become your biggest strength as you've described it in others - those that overcome, persevere but not through distraction - but through understanding of things in simple terms. *but it can't be that simple!* the ego want's to say. But ego is a distraction of what is. Going Eckhart Tolle here. /end comment/engagement :D These sessions are therapeutic, to me. Share more in the future brother. Don't think much :D
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