I realize that every time I try to explain something to people by words, I stumble up, loose my train of thought, and in general forget what I am talking about. I am awkward that way. ***I tried to explain about a charity I am passionate about yesterday, and even though I had the thought in my mind, I just couldn't get it out properly***. My words would jumble up in my mind and make a wild dance. I couldn't catch em'. Ended up with series of repeating myself and stumbling up, again.

Now, this is not the problem when I talk about my own interests or participate in a discussion, just when I need to give some kind of a presentation. So I have come to a conclusion that ***it is a skill I need to pick up***. Obviously most people are not born with the expertise of how to be good in front of an audience, it is something to learn, polish and master.

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I was a shy kid, so public speaking is still not something I do confidently, but to be honest, ***most people are terrified of speaking in front of an audience***, because of the basic fear of rejection, nobody likes to feel as an outcast, to feel unappreciated and left out, so naturally most are afraid of going out in front of that huge crowd that consists of what looks more like piranhas than humans.

I am good at writing, though, at least I like to think that, still huge way to improve, but I have taken a great liking to it. I have wild imagination, and decided to write my first book when I was 13, I made my first cover and sew it together by myself. Reading it now, ***I laugh about my skills then, because I have improved a bunch since that time as naturally, we get better with a skill over time***, by repeating a thing enough times, over and over.

The point is that I spent most of my childhood reading, I even run out of books to take from the local(small) library, so I had a lot of practice before I ever started writing, public speaking, though? Only in front of my class, when I had to. I didn't decide that I wanted to speak in front of the whole group, I had assignments, it wasn't something I enjoyed much, whereas ***books were like food to me***, necessary and amazing as far as I saw.

Nobody is born brilliant in every aspect of life, there are just too many skills to acquire, expertise in a subject always needs to be mastered, and each of us has a talent, hidden or not, but there is one. Even this talent needs to improved, because we are given the basic tools to be the best of us, but ***it is up to each individual to exceed or parish***. There is no need to master everything in life, knowing little bit of each thing is very beneficial, but if you want to be the best of something, you will need to work on your skills continuously, because there is always a way to improve. My thing is writing, I want to be great at it, I want to inspire people by it, I wish to excel by getting better at it.

Choose your thing and become good at it, don't waste extra time on something you don't like, I know that ***happiness doesn't come easy for those who realize somebody else's dreams***. I want to be better at public speaking, but I don't want to become expert at it, because I don't particularly enjoy it, it is a valuable skill for me, though, so I will learn it.

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