https://cdn.pixabay.com/photo/2016/10/24/23/00/heart-1767552_960_720.jpg Image source: [Pixabay](https://cdn.pixabay.com/photo/2016/10/24/23/00/heart-1767552_960_720.jpg) When you are chronic pain sufferer or a Lymie (Lyme disease victim) you are accustomed to pain. You can’t complain anymore about it because it is part of your normality. By now you learnt how to live with it and how to ignore it. You don’t run to the doctor anymore when your joints get swollen and ache or when you have muscle pain and twitches, horrible migraines, heart palpitations and so on. The doctor can’t help you anyway! He can’t make them go away! He’s not a wizard! Since you are dealing daily with a cocktail of symptoms it is hard to dissociate Lyme symptoms from others ones. Add a nasty flu to it and then it is nearly impossible to know what caused what. All you know is that you feel awful and you need a break from it. The danger with blocking the pain or ignoring the symptoms can have negative consequences. You can assume that it is only a flare up, while in reality it can be something more severe, even life-threatening. http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-0cdFgfNx5AE/TyuBzzjtjGI/AAAAAAAAEPc/Jw5CeVlQpEA/s640/DSC_0159.JPG ### <center>••.•´•.••**THE REAL STORY**••.•´•.••</center> A few months back, I woke up in the middle of the night gasping for air. I had a nasty flu for almost a week. It started with high fever and continued with a horrible cough, itchy sore throat, fatigue, vomiting, nausea, cough and a chest pain that never went away. It only got worse while coughing or at night while I laid down. When I tried to move, I realized that the chest pain had increased and it radiated on my left arm. I did not paid attention to the arm pain, assuming it was due either to my Lyme or because I had slept on it. Three hours later I was in my doctor’s office, waiting for him to examine me. I was convinced that my chest pain and the burning sensation I was experiencing were due to a chronic bronchitis. When I described my symptoms, he checked my heart and send me right away to do an X-ray, an ECG and a ultrasound for the heart. He suspected I had developed Pericarditis, an inflammation of the sac holding the heart. It turned out that his suspicion was accurate. I did have Pericarditis. The cardiologist confirmed it. What he also added was that my newly developed illness was due to a mild heart attack or a viral infection. I’m not sure which one he said first. Those two words: *“heart attack”* reverberated through my whole body. Point is that this diagnosis terrified me. It made me understand how fragile I was. I was not ready for that. I always saw myself as a warrior, even when I had hit rock bottom. Although I have lived and survived many frightening or life-threatening situations throughout my life, I never felt so scared as in that moment. Needless to add that this episode triggered a lot of emotions which I had no clue how to sort out. The perspective of a sudden death never seemed scarier than in that moment. Years back when I had lost my ability to walk all by myself for a few months, I used to believe that dying was better than being stuck in a wheelchair. Luckily the meds helped me gained my mobility and go back to a so called *“normal”* life. At least with Lyme, I knew I still had a chance to grow old. A heart condition, on the other hand, raised new questions, as I had a child to think about. I left the doctor’s office in a *“zombie mode”* with a bunch of papers with *"not to do things"* and prescriptions. Once I took my medication from the clinic’s pharmacy, I stayed in the car for half an hour, figuring out where I had to go from there. One thing was certain: I had to do tabula rasa once more. As I was driving out of the parking lot I saw the sign in the photo above "Watch for children", as if someone was trying to remind me of my duties as a parent. <center>••.•´•.••To be continued••.•´•.••</center>
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I do believe this is the worst nightmare. Living with the fear that you can die anytime, before getting the ***things*** right for your child. Even though it was in my power of choice, I know how it feels. It's the most frightening thought which can cross your mind. Is not the fear of the death which scares you, but the fear of what would happen with your child after you are gone. I wish you a long life and all the strength you need.
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You said right, the fear of the aftermath, that was scary. Once I took the proper steps to get things right, I felt better. I'll have another post on that. Thank you for you kind words.
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I hope micro-doses (environmental and self-induced stress) of what you react to will enable your body to reboot. Namaste, JaiChai
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Nowadays, I take everything in micro-doses. Thank you for the read and comment @JaiChai!
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I have a very busy life and love to be up and about (being a working mom, managing the home and children), when I fall sick, I feel so down as if I could control it that much too. But having to live with a sickness and manage it, that takes a whole lot! Bravo!
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Thanks for stopping by! Life goes on for everyone and we need to embrace whatever is thrown on our path and move on.
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A sad and scary story. Your condition is really serious. Keep fighting. I'm interested to know more about tabula rasa.
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Thank you for stopping by. Yes, it was scary. As for tabula rasa, I had to chance again my lifestyle. Less work, less stress, new diet and so on...
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Damn! That's about the only word for it, I think. I will stop complaining about my chronic fatigue so much! So sorry you're going through all this, but thank you so much for being brave enough to share - understanding is the first step for the outsider. :-)
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That's what I said to myself when I heard the doctor: "Damn!" . I thought I was too young for this lol Thanks for taking the time to read and comment.
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