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><h3>There is sense in "nonesense", so let my nonesensity makes sense to you!</h3>

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Many knew me as a gentle giant, some knew me as a fierce being. This two assertions are so right about me- i am both gentle and tough. In my college days, i can be deadly but i never hurt anyone because nobody hurt me indirectly except for the pains and sadness of growing up.





<h1>Pains and Sadness</h1>


I am that man who had no childhood, but still managed to grow up fine thanks to my two big brothers. I grew up without a dad, lost my dad three years after i was born and it sadly happens to be 3 days to my birthday when he passed, _**That is why i never had birthdays!**_



Sadly, 25 years after my Dad passed- my dear mum passed too. She passed right when i was just starting life as a responsible man and everything crumbled for me. The woman who never remarried but married her 3 sons, took debts to take care of them, Go days with them without something tangible to eat. The woman who went all the way with me in a State Military Sponsored Exam to the Final even when all Sponsors backed out because they thought i would not make it- and i came 3rd in the whole of the state back in 1995.



_**She did not pass on to the great beyond in her prime, she was just 55 years and never saw her any of her grandchildren!**_


This pains are heavy upon my shoulders, i carry a deep scar inside of me and i hope it all healed. I had no motivation until i found steemit; a place i often open up my bitterness to.



 By dreams, i would have been a lieutenant in the Military either in my homeland or abroad. Lateness caused me that, after 9/11 back then; the United States Army came to my country to recruit able lads to go fight insurgencies in the Middle East, i got the gist so late and behold when i got their, they were gone!






By Physical Fitness and endurance, i planned to go to the Olympics as a boxer and maybe become a professional one. I use to be an avid football player, but in the Year 2000; i Fractured my Right Leg- Two compound Fracture plus a dislocation at my ankle, it was an horrific memory as my leg turned backward after the impact on the football pitch back in High-school.



For Six months, i was condemned to indoors. My big brother @peman and my Immediate brother-the father of my godson were my mobile devices; they piggy backed me to some short distances to keep me sane as i was losing my senses for too much in-activities. That changed my sports mentality after i gained my feet back thanks to Dr.Adejumo- i hope he still remembers that boy he saved his leg when others were already suggesting amputation for a teenage boy!





By the time i was 17, i gained in body weight and mass, surpassing my older siblings and my cousins. So i channeled my bulkiness into body building, then i gained admission into one of the deadly local colleges and to fend for myself; i ventured into Karate. After few months of Karate, my coach got tired of me not being able to do a complete 180 split, so jumped ship and became a kick-boxer. It was easy for me as i had some basic training of some nice deadly kicks so _**mixing it with boxing was juicy to me!**_






Artist Blood runs in my family, many who knows @peman could attest to that. My Late mum was a fine artist as a Teacher so is my late Grandma- She was a Midwife who knows the anatomy of the woman body by heart. She draws reproductive organs like a piece of cake at an old age, so when i draw i see a piece of her in me. Below is one of my Pen drawing after over decades of drawing except in Exams and Tests.


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_**The details of this drawing i will share in my next blog.**_


As you can see, i am very rusty; i could have asked @peman to do it for me but i decided to give it a try, upon finishing i showed him and he gave me a thumbs up.




<h2>So from my short history, you all could see An Artist, A military by heart, An armature martial art Man, A soccer enthusiast who never made it to stardom.</h2>



<h1>Dissapointments</h1>

I ran a marathon back in 2009, went for a Survival show "Gulder Ultimate Search" that same year, all in my quest for stardom. I was screened out because i couldn't swim!


The marathon was organised by a Telecom Company in my country, Globacom-Glo as it is generally called. The position i took i will not know but my medal still remains missing and i promise to make an account of that faithful day when i became an international athlete or so my younger relatives sees me as a Hero because dozens of them saw me on National Television NTA.



A girl i loved got pregnant to someone else while abroad for her Studies, up till now at 30 plus and still single. I love babies, but never plan to have one out of wedlock. For now, i save my Steemit earnings to go see my godson in Canada!




<h1>This Sadness, Pains and Disappointment had impact on my life; but never gonna determine who i am and who am going to be:</h1>



I lived through all this with glimpse of hope, i am a fully grown man now who is emotionally wrecked, bitterness had stored up in me that its hard for me to forgive whom ever do me wrong. I have found strength to forgive those who hurt me and my household in my childhood but still never can't forget them. I am the one who never forgets tiny favors because all my life i had little or no helps in all my extremely difficult Situations.



The pains and sadness of others consumed me, that's why i always have little left in my resources because i would always share my bounty to the last. I am benevolent to a fault and so when am called stingy i never forgive such human who knew not my wiring.




The Responsibilities assigned to me i never have rest till i execute them. I am encouraged by positive minded folks, and i am dead shy in my real self-so my defense mechanism from childhood is to put up a cold die hard face, so that i don't flinch when you look into my eyes.





<h3>I am he who searches for inner happiness, who sees life from different color even though am color blind. The goodness in me i have used to combat the sadness and pains i had experience and i am loyal to those who values my being!</h3>


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<h1>UPVOTE, RESTEEM, FOLLOW AND MAYBE DROP A COMMENT.....It's your friendly Neighbor and the Newest Godfather and Uncle @oluwoleolaide for Steem-Lagos-Nigeria-Africa-World!</h1>


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