<html> <p>PS: I'm back, this post had remained "unpublished" for a year since almost New Year 2018<br> today is Monday, December 10, 2018, <br> But... lol... 2018 has been busier than busy, a lot has been achieved since I had written the text below:</p> <p>END OF 2018 for yours truly was all about:</p> <p><em>Breaking the Cycles, reclaiming my Space?</em></p> <p><em>What held me in for so long? Was it the lack of courage? That kept me so busy “helping”???<br> Was it my Real Compassion? Was it my female sense of eternal Guilt? Was it my sense of Responsibility? Was it other's Emotional Blackmail on me? Propaganda from the self-believed selves? It cannot have been “Ego” as I always keep my “good deeds” quiet and anonymous (if possible)<br> Truthfully? I know for a fact that For most people it is easier: <br> To “”help(?)” others by: </em></p> <ul> <li><em>“isn’t it being “”judgemental” about others </em></li> <li><em>“”condemning” others </em></li> <li><em>“”criticising” others </em></li> <li><em>“”bullying” others </em></li> <li><em>“”being paternalistic” is a another one! </em></li> </ul> <p><em>Isn’t it Easier than to look at oneself - truthfully so - and ask “Why... am I doing this?” Escapism from my harsh reality? The Feel-Good daily pill? To be “Popular” and seek acceptance? … Find LOVE At ALL cost where it can be found …<br> <br> It does not have to be that way, or does it? I am breaking loose from the old paradigm, While forgiving myself and others for the Past I am eagerly looking forward again to Just Being Me 2018 is the start Yours truly, PKM</em></p> <p><em> </em></p> </html>
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Everything is changing so fast, here I am back a year later and... lol... guess what... I have a new (fresh from this very morning) post to publish and cannot get the "write a story" option in here from My Blog... ???... Hence why I am writing here, to see if... I have access at all. if I am still "signed-in" lo etc... Changes are indeed challenging! ;-)
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