Haha yip, sorry for the late reply wanted to attend to your comments below also and then hit the rabbit hole , got a druid bunny chasing me so taking a moment behind a boulder immune to spells to respond to you. Feeling special yet? haha

I actually end up covering a lot of the story in the comments, but dreem had it right with her summary. although explaining it on voice last night I doubted I gave the actual sensory deprivation any thought turns out I kind of did and had a reason for her to be blind, deaf and then feel... You could continue it or fill in blanks in your own post if you like.

[This actually sums it all up perfectly. ](https://steemit.com/@juliamulcahy/re-penderis-all-you-see-20181121t162929595z)

I think the general idea is that they gave her a drug which changes perception, making her perceive the situation in increasingly worse and more desolate ways.

But... part of the genius of this piece is the mystery, leaving out some details  just adds to the overall effect. 

<sub>gonna repeat the comment for monchichi...</sub>

Thank you @curie and @gabyoraa :)

I think the general idea is that they gave her a drug which changes perception, making her perceive the situation in increasingly worse and more desolate ways.

But... part of the genius of this piece is the mystery, leaving out some details  just adds to the overall effect. 

<sub>gonna repeat the comment for dreemie...</sub>

Yes, I have no intention of finishing the story as I consider it finished. :) Intentions do change, I might consider a continuation always leaving the main as is but just continuing down a new path I think @youhavewings post about e8 could very well help me get a few ideas rolling.  No promises though haha.

I felt being concerned with the procedures would take away and did not really ponder them. My only focus was the controlling of senses and in turn testing the effect on perception.  Given nothing is backed by any research it was merely my way of trying to better conceptualize the difference between perspective and perception. 

It can be that what we perceive may become our destiny, I think though in this case, it is more her destiny was set, whether it ends good or bad no matter what she tried to convince herself by thinking positive this would not change her actual perception. I don't think just thinking happy thoughts would have had her recall different information as this is merely her convincing herself. What I tried to convey is that she recalls different information based on new information through her experience. 

I can probably comb through it and definitely clean up and focus a bit more on the sensory aspects. Also to even straighten out the thought process a bit more, I agree with your thoughts on it apart from @juliamulcahy reprimanded me about also having used positive thinking as a replacement for a positive perception or the choice to be positive by accepting and adapting.  Even now I believe I might be using it incorrectly. 

edit: Just to add yes she perceived the trial to be a good thing, which is then her first recall. As the experience continues this perceived good changes because it might yet be a bad thing. 

I do hope I have not confused too much, Thank you for reading.

To quote and summarize from one of the comments 

>A couple of experiments aided by them drugging her. 
Each one changed her perception of what she had experienced.
She recalls the same experience.
With different perceptions based on the circumstances (of the experimental drugs)

I could have definitely given more attention to the individual affects of her not being able to see or hear this might have gone too in depth and I instead focused on the overall effect of circumstances changing, time passing, anxiety growing and eventually a bit of relief. Which for me affects her perception of what happened and reflects her perception of what is too still occur. 

The goal of the story was to separate perception from a perspective as best I can, for me to better understand the individual word and its usage. I really can't say whether I have accomplished that but we had some amazing content in [the Drop in the Ocean show](https://steemit.com/created/dropintheocean) that do a wonderful job of further explaining the word. 

Glad you enjoyed it enough to keep reading. :)

Definitely, it is also something that should not be thought of naively and we should explore other perspectives to better inform our overall perception.

No, I never intend to continue with stories. Too much to consider, kind of like small details

To quote and summarize from one of the comments

>A couple of experiments aided by them drugging her.
Each one changed her perception of what she had experienced.
She recalls the same experience.
With different perceptions based on the circumstances (of the experimental drugs)

The baby,eyes and smile were my way to simply explain the changes in her perception between positive and negative, I might say that the final one would be the neutral perception or generally agreed on.

As the lights dim, or the baby dies these are negative.
Friendly eyes, bright lights, baby is alive these are positive.
In the final list, I attempted a balance of both, which is a generally agreed upon reality, or perception. Sure you can still see brighter lights than others this is still your personal perception in relation to other information. It would be a warped perception I think to see a dead baby when it is instead sleeping, obviously assuming the mother is not crying or screaming. 

I hope this provides some insight into what I was thinking. I would say that answering all the comments I had to also stop and think a bit about what my intention was so sure it might not all be concrete but I feel that is why I personally enjoyed writing it this way.  Someone else could take the story and continue or even cover it in more detail to form something I could never have imagined.

Thank you. I feel like I can do the intriguing because I don't think the details through. It is too damn much to consider everything lol. As for the show definitely check out the other posts on our topic of perception this week they are excellent - [Drop in the Ocean posts](https://steemit.com/created/dropintheocean)