Just my thoughts. by poeticsnake

life · @poeticsnake · Dec 11 '16

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Just my thoughts.

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<p>There are days I find myself starring outside while I see nothing and all I hear are the voices in my head. The world spins and people do their thing while I find myself stuck inside my head with thoughts I can not shake. Why do certain things happen and why does it affect me so much? Sometimes these thoughts or questions are small but there are also days they are heavy and the only thing I feel on those days is sadness and the need to escape my own mind.&nbsp;</p>
<p>But I can't run away from my own thoughts, they are stuck in my head and I am stuck with them. We come as a pair and there is no way to split us up. No matter how hard I run my thoughts will always catch up and slither back in their comfy home that is my head.&nbsp;</p>
<p>Today I woke up with the news on the back ground and my heart skipped a few beats hearing about a new bombing in Turkey. One might say I should not listen to the news but for some reason the news always finds you as well. I feel for all the people who lost loved ones or friends today. Because of this news my mind started to spin again today and I found myself lost in a pit of sadness while I am not even close to where it all happened.&nbsp;</p>
<p>I care, I care too much maybe even though I believe you can never care too much. But I also believe that I let the world in too easy. I always scream I have this big wall build around me to protect myself for any harm but truth is that wall is made of cotton candy because the first ray of sunshine of the day already melts my wall. I want every soul on this earth to be happy, to feel loved but who am I to make that happen? What can I do? I am just one person, one soul who dreams about a better world.&nbsp;</p>
<p>On days like these I wish I could do more than just send a friendly smile or blog into the world. I wish I could wrap my arms around every soul and squeeze them tight while I whisper in their ears that everything will be okay. I wish I could take away the pain of those who suffer and bring them happiness instead. But I am just me and my arms are not that huge.&nbsp;</p>
<p>Today I feel like being a single drop of water falling down on a burning plate trying to safe the world from harm by sending love and understanding, acceptance and guidance. But instead of cooling the burning plate down I am already vaporized before I hit it!&nbsp;</p>
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<p>Just my thoughts! <br>
Please be more kind for each other. Life is too short to live in pain and hate!&nbsp;</p>
<p><img src="https://s6.postimg.org/422trd9ch/Thoughts.jpg" width="436" height="328"/></p>
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@karenb54 · Dec 11 '16

I know those feelings so well especially when something terrible has happened I'm even worse when a animal has been hurt

👍 poeticsnake

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@poeticsnake · Dec 12 '16

Some days I let the world in too hard! 
I hate to see animals in pain as well.

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@oaldamster · Dec 11 '16

You already made a difference by writing out your thoughts and sharing them. Even an apparant small thought will make a change.

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@poeticsnake · Dec 12 '16

Thank you @oaldamster! 
You words made me wake up with a smile!

👍 oaldamster

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@oaldamster · Dec 12 '16

You are welcome @poeticsnake! ;-)
Have a nice day!

👍 poeticsnake

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2 replies

@merej99 · Dec 12 '16

I live in a little cocoon where I rarely listen to the radio and I no longer have TV so I do not have that noise streaming into my consciousness. Yes, I am out of touch but I do that for my own peace of mind. In the past, I would have disappeared into the abyss of depression. December is my terrible month. But not this year. We're nearly half way through the month and I'm still with the active and living. I still feel good. What's changed?  
The stream of consciousness I allow in my house. The fact that I'm blogging on Steemit and doing my part in a thriving community. That I am doing my part to help people. 
I know where you are in the darkness, love. I'm sorry you are going through this but I am sending you my positive thoughts and prayers for tomorrow to be a better day.

👍 poeticsnake

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@poeticsnake · Dec 12 '16

I stopped watching tv as well a while ago but I do use Netflix! I hardly have the radio on but I wanted to hear some Christmas music. Sometimes life gets to me. Today is going to be a better day! Now all I need is the fog to clear up yesterday left behind.

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