> ### <center>“Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself.”</center>

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A powerful quotation that describes not only a thoughtful meaning but also leaves an inspiration for many girls. Yes, I am a brown girl and  I am not ashamed of it. I feel proud of myself who I am and what I am and I am grateful for that.

Honestly speaking it took me a long time to understand that, all I knew was skin color should be pale, white, fair. You can't be skinny, you can't be very healthy, you have to be house oriented and you need to be fair. 

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Well, I am a girl of the 20th century which means I saw both the 20th and 21th-century transition. I know a lot of people will start arguing with me that you are wrong, this is not true but as a south-Asian girl, I will write what I faced, what a normal girl usually faces.

**By the way, don't ask me about my age, you won't believe it I swear.** 

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There was a time when I was insecure about my color tone plus I was not confident. I used to hide myself, I was anti-social. Well still now I am anti-social. Later, I have realized that I am seeing myself from other's perspective, where is my perspective? What I actually think about myself? 

Believe me or not, I have faced a lot of criticism, from family, from school everywhere because of skin-color tone and being skinny. 

There is a trend in Bangladesh, if you are skinny, people will say oh my God!!! Why you are so skinny? You should eat, you look like a skeleton, maybe your family doesn't take care of you. If you are fat, some people will say, do a diet, you are too fat. Nobody gonna marry you. 

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When I was a 4th-year student of architecture I did my first makeover, I changed my dressing style, I changed my hairstyle everything. Then again a new topic, she is so modern, she is so arrogant. Well, whatever I didn't care at all. 

When I started taking care of myself, I started putting make-up again people said, why you wear so much makeup, we appreciate natural beauty, be natural not artificial. 

My answer was always the same until now. I do makeup for my own, I feel good wearing makeup because I think makeup is an art to represent yourself and not everyone has the eye to visualize that. 

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Now I don't care what others say about me except my dad, I don't care if anyone thinks I am a makeup-queen or not. I know myself and I know what I am capable of. Because I didn't choose to be a housewife, that was not my target at all otherwise I would have married a rich guy and stayed at home like a queen and watched tv series all the time...

This was not me, this is not me... 

In Ukraine, 98% of girls are pale except some foreigners. So, I am unique, my skin tone is unique and now after 10 years, those same people say, color doesn't matter qualification matters. 

**Well, about qualification, I guess I have a brain to think and have guts to do something for myself...**

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**I wrote what I felt if you don't agree it's up to you. This is me, a girl who saw many phases of life, who harassed by people, who abused by people, who bullied by people and about sexual harassment... Will discuss it later...**

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