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Being constantly put down by adults is something that I am no stranger too. It is something that I’ve grown up with, and it has become the second little voice in the back of my head. This little voice keeps on telling me how useless I am a life. Growing up my grandmother would always tell me how stupid I was, or that I would never be able to make anything of myself.

I would constantly be told by teachers how stupid I was, and I remember my 3rd grade teacher caused me to cry in front of the 2nd grade class because I wrote the 3 backwards. I will admit that I had always been an extremely slow learner and don't always catch the logical things as fast as other people, and that has made me a target for bullying.

I also remember when I stopped doing homework when my grandmother lived with us because I didn't want to hear how stupid I was anymore.  This held me back in school and only made things harder for me. Since then, school only got worse and harder.

In high school it was even harder to cope and I ended up sitting more detention then being in school. I stayed home most days because of all the bullying.  I felt that I was not bright and this showed in all my classes.  Admittedly, I began to think that the world would be so much better without some dumb chick in it.

I got to the point where I absolutely hated myself and didn't even want to leave my room. Luckily for me I had my mom who supported me 100% and started home schooling us. 

My mom passed away and I no longer had her as a rock to support.  Once again the bullying started because we were shoved back into mainstream school. I was so far behind I did not know how I would ever catch up.  The fact that my mom passed away left me with great sadness and I just did not have the energy to fight the constant belittling anymore.  The final slate was when my Math teacher asked me in front of the whole class if I was an idiot….all I heard was the echo of laughter in that class.  I was 16 at the time so of course I was supposed to know what she was talking about but I didn't. 

As adults we often say things to children without realising the full impact it will have on them and their lives. We forget how impressionable young minds truly are and what one small comment will do to their self-esteem. Children get put down more by adults than kids their own age and knowing how that feels, I just can't imagine ever doing that to a child.

Why can't we focus on when they're good at, instead of picking out every single problem we see. I wish that I never had to go through that because it is something that has made such an impression on me and I still live through that every day. 

My so called best friend was supposed to help me with Math but instead of helping me she constantly told me that the work was so easy.  I had a mental block.  I just couldn’t understand. 

We begged my father to allow us to be home-schooled again. 

Being home-schooled the second time was the most amazing experience.  We enrolled in an online school called Cyber School.  We attended live classes and for the first time in my life I felt as if I was worth something.  We had the most amazing teachers and it is also this teacher @giantbear that inspired me to open an account here on Steemit.

My teachers at Cyber School was interested in me.  They motivated me and helped me build my self-esteem. This teacher has been a positive role model in my life, and changed the way I think about life. 

If you are a teacher or a parent, make sure that you see the positive in a child.  Negative experiences stay with you forever and it takes such a long time to build a child’s confidence again.  My teacher is still there for me and I know that I can go to her at any time and she will help me in the best way that she can.

We are all flawed.  We all make mistakes, but focus on the positives instead of all the negatives.  You need to be a positive role model in your child’s life.  Just because you are an adult, it does not give you the right to belittle a child.  Think twice before you speak as you don’t know how your words will affect them for the rest of their lives