This is more or less the summary of my day. ![rat.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmahxYXqBfeR4GqKqo9mwt64k8U51QjAa1vQwqgBYrdxXF/rat.jpg) Since nobody knows me here, (thanks Steemit community for the complete animosity) I feel I can rant about anything. I have been crying for hours and when I finally stopped because I had no more tears left, my head was hurting for the strong cry. It has been 6 months since I have been ditched by my ex boyfriend. I truly loved him and it is hard to accept that he simply doesn't. I killed my feelings, humiliated myself to the bottom and had nothing else left in my dignity. I have been trying to chase other weirdos like me, but I guess I am not sending the right signals because nothing seems to work. I feel to cry while at the supermarket or when I am working in front of the computer, then I hide my head so nobody can hear me. I am singing for hours and hours (I sing shit) trying to heal. Healing has been so difficoult. Today, the dead rat made me feel less lonely.
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I know what days like these feel alike. But please don't forget, sandrina- the pain will fade away. Every day a little more. You, too, will find your true love. Don't believe in these words, believe in Live itself. God bless, darling Many Hugs <3
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thank you for your kind words
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