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You either like horror or you don't. I don't think there's any middle ground when it comes to horror.

# I LOVE horror. I really like getting freaked out for some reason. Horror movies don't scare me as much as real life though. Being trapped in a mindless, boring fucking job is the thing that truly scares me. Boredom and wage slavery is true horror. However, I will add, the scariest fucking movie I've ever seen and which ended up being banned in my city is Irreversible.
During the screening, a girl who was sitting next to me ran out of the theater in shock. I watched the entire thing, and when all the brave remaining people left the theater, I had the sensation of being an abused child. The film had the effect of me replaying the nightmare in my mind for about 4 days. I was literally psychologically violated. The reason it's so disturbing is that the camera perspective is often from the victim's point of view:

https://youtu.be/OU-ZOHeWLkU

Let me continue. I had one really terrifying experience that on some levels doesn't even feel real to me. Several years ago I had a one night stand with a magician. He lived in a big house. I'm not going into too many details here, but after our night was over he gave me his phone number. 

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_Shaye St. John_

## The first time I called it, I got a recording which asked me to select a number. Based on what number I selected, I would get different experiences, different voices. One voice that answered sounded like it was a person trapped in a room, like they were muffled with a sock in their mouth. They said a few words, then total silence except for something metal clacking in the background. Every time I called the number, I became terrified. But I became addicted to the high too. 

Nothing was ever the same, no matter how many times I tried to duplicate the experience. Sometimes, selecting the number '3' gave me a recording and at other times, someone answered but they never asked who I was.

I became so fixated on this game that for a while, I thought I was losing my mind. I knew it was dangerous. I knew the person behind it was probably deranged, but I couldn't stop calling it. It was unlike anything I'd ever even concieved of. It was like entering a horror movie,  A REAL ONE. 

# I can't remember how I finally stopped calling the number. I felt that maybe I was really getting into something that could kill me. 

I didn't know ever find out if the people who answered the phone were somehow being held against their will. That is certainly how it felt to me. The magician never answered the phone, it was other people, but as I said, they didn't "talk" to me. They only made sounds, nonsense words. I was like a voyeur into a world of madness.

I got into a rabbit hole this morning, and it really all began with this Corpse Husband video that describes a story about a man who suffered so much from a pointless, and totally meaningless life that he hired a hitman on himself. The story is like 8 hours long, and I got sucked into it about a month ago. It was so compelling, I thought it was real. I was fooled 100%. It also inspired me. It was a genius story about how the depths of boredom and feeling of worthlessness can thrust you into thrill-seeking experiences. I could relate to the main character A LOT. Boredom, routine and lack of purpose are my true horrors that sometimes propel me into the weirdest and most bizarre things......Here's the I Hired A Hit Man On Myself video: 

https://youtu.be/fsTIT-enBtQ

Back to the rabbit hole of horror this morning..... I had started embellishing my own stories on the nosleep subReddit, making my real stories into horror ones. I usually did this by adding an ending, like murdering someone....I made it really subtle. Anyway, several people on there said they liked my creepy stories: https://www.reddit.com/r/nosleep/comments/4h1ibz/i_survived_a_date_with_a_serial_killer/

And I was on Reddit this morning, checking out my posts, in the hopes that I get more Karma so I can start something here on Steemit (under a different name, of course). I ran across a Reddit user saying that Shaye St. John's videos are the creepiest. By the way, this stuff is really disturbing, so if you get creeped out, stop now.

I was intrigued, so I looked up the videos. Here's the 'Hand Thing':

https://youtu.be/NtSgWZbL_kE

and if you're still here, watch this one too:

https://youtu.be/ryRFBqA5YQc

I had never heard of Shaye St. John. Where the fuck have I been? Creepy and disturbing don't even seem to properly describe this stuff. It's insanity, raw insanity.

Ok, now I wanted to find out who this Shaye person was. It turns out the channel and website was made by an artist:

"Shaye Saint John is a fictional character who appeared in a series of surrealist, campy short films hosted on a crudely designed webpage. Saint John, a product of artist Eric Fournier,[1] was described with a backstory claiming she was a supermodel disfigured in a train accident, who rebuilt her body with a collection of mannequin parts.[2]" -[wikipedia](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shaye_Saint_John)

The worst part of this thing is that Eric Fournier was a chronic alcoholic and died in 2010 from internal hemorraghing, from his overconsumption of booze. It's pretty disturbing, the alcoholic part......

From Shaye, I then found my way to watching the 15 creepiest YouTube videos ever and here's that:

https://youtu.be/F1J-vdbp66E

Have a happy day everyone! 

I'll see you in nightmares,

-S

ps, here's the entire IRREVERSIBLE movie on vimeo. Don't watch this if you're prone to becoming disturbed:
https://vimeo.com/131584336