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"I’ve felt stumped. This is because I’m getting caught up on maximising rewards and not about being authentic and sharing from my experiences." You are not alone. I write because I have the disease of writing, not because of the rewards attached to it. But I related to many of your points because I also feel this new kind of self-consciousness that I am not used to. Basically, I have been writing and creating images/art for many years and receiving limited economic rewards for it. And I certainly never ended up in a parody comic or a video because of my writing. The attention for writing and doing well on Steemit was not a motivating factor for writing on Steemit. I write and create art because I am not really cut out for anything else. I get bored with most jobs if it includes any sort of routine. Additionally, I cherish my autonomy more than anything else (well, curiosity is right up there too). But I am beginning to feel that my authentic, honest voice, is not something that powerful people enjoy. This is the case inside of all power structures. I feel like a small person, always have. Today I have been studying behavior modification theory and more specifically how monetary rewards do not actually bring about satisfaction and long-term instrinsic behaviors. Your post illustrates well why writers and artists are motivated from within and generally do not do well when the rewards are extrinsic in nature. I think I am motivated by the feeling that "I could lose it all." I exist on the fringes of the world, and I enjoy the beginnings of anything. It's odd, because a lot of people, if they were in my shoes might do everything in their power to protect their investment. But you see, I never intended to become invested here. It happened as a by-product of me being an insanely driven writer. I am not different from the first day, except now i have a big investment, that was created by others rewarding me. I now experience conflict when I decide to post because of this thought process: What will the whales think of my post if I decide to tell the truth about things as I truly see them? I never had that conflict in the beginning, and I see that I must just continue to write in the way i have always done: with total abandon. Doing otherwise will result in sub-par results that will not do anyone any good. Write for thyself! You are correct.
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I wish I could upvote this twice.
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if many people are writing the same thing, from within the same system, and these people are on different spectrums, then the truth is somewhere among them. Systemic pressures create the same experience for a wide number of different people.
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