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· @stellabelle · (edited)
$3.50
Are you still manic depressive? We should start a side blog publication called, 'WHAT I DO WHEN I'M MANIC"
I tend to obsess over things, smoke and want to get drunk! Actually the drinking doesn't make me drunk, it calms me down to normal mode. 
Being obsessive though, makes for good art and writing................I think it's a necessary deal, oh, and working alone is an odd thing too. I prefer working alone! I don't like people peering over my shoulder when I'm creating something.....
speaking of art stuff...... tonight i built a miniature steemit world in my car, on the dash! Here's a peek. I'm doing a video of it soon....
![imageea486.jpg](https://www.steemimg.com/images/2016/08/05/imageea486.jpg)
That's Dan, in the whale carriage, being led by a pegasus, whales, orcas.
He's being trailed by a snake, a dragon and a shark.

I also built an idea medusa. She embodies where the crazy and creative ideas come from:
![image2e145.jpg](https://www.steemimg.com/images/2016/08/05/image2e145.jpg)
This is right on the dash, nearest me in my car.
I spent $250 at the craft store and finally was able to buy all the art supplies I needed without feeling the guilt......I haven't bought supplies like this in a loooooong time...
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@hanshotfirst ·
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Oooo I think I see myself. I'm the spec of dust... for now. But some day I'll be a plastic sea animal for sure!
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@stellabelle ·
You're someone. You just don't realize it yet! I want to start putting names on them, but everyone is morphing into bigger creatures, I don't think it's fair. Dan is THE whale, of course, with all the tiny creatures clinging to his whale carriage for dear life. I'm one of those creatures! Without Dan (or Ned), I would still be having a shitty life! This is the truth!
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@klye ·
We're more than specs of dust.. We are actually star dust. :D
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@hanshotfirst ·
@kyle we are all made of stars...
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@serejandmyself ·
That was genious! = )))))
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@hanshotfirst ·
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I really respect how much gratitude you show Dan and Ned. Something tells me if you didn't hit it big here, you'd find a way. You're creative... and a savvy business person. Plus you really seem to want to help people out. Glad you found your niche.
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@stellabelle ·
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Dan and Ned have saved me from a life of drudgery. I always struggled with charging money for my artwork/videos/writing/collages/photography/graphics. Working at a company just doesn't make a lot of sense, but I am a bad self-promoter. I never made it "big" because I have ADD I think. I change themes/topics/mediums like on a weekly basis. One week I'm designing shoes, the next I'm studying the flying machines of Tesla. I make zero sense in the highly specialized business world. I worked for an inventor once too........that was my favorite job....anyway, I do like to make people feel good. I'm kind of addicted to that feeling. It makes me feel less depressed/obsessive.
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@hanshotfirst ·
I am so ADD. Probably had a behavior disorder in high school as well... so naturally I became a special education teacher lol. I always tell my students with ADD that ADD can be a huge asset if you pick the right job. They think ADD means they can't pay attention. But it's quite the contrary.  It means you pay attention to EVERYTHING. That can really come in handy as a teacher or an artist whose mind is racing with ideas. Oh yeah. And paramedics. Lots of paramedics have ADD. Helps them assess an accident scene in a hurry.
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@stellabelle ·
I was fine in my teen years, then as a college student I got into art, video feedback, well, everything. I had plenty of weird stuff happen. Also, elation, creativity....I found myself interested in things passionately. Now, I am happy. I get to be myself,.....finally! I have never been to a doctor, and don't plan to! I'm making my weird mind work and it's quite content now. ADD is only a condition if you're forced to live in a stupid, dull society that snuffs out creativity.
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@hanshotfirst ·
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Or a society that thinks all kids should sit still for 8 hours a day. Let kinds have some physical and creative freedom and just watch what they can do!
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@stellabelle ·
exactly! Our house is known as the art house! I leave paints and stuff on a table, the kids from the neighborhood stop by, and they start creating instantly. It's natural to create!
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@klye · (edited)
Oh yeah. I'm Bipolar. Was diagnosed manic depressive as a child.

I'll save the detail for an article some other times.. It's been a ride so far.

For me it used to all about sex, drugs and gambling when I was manic.
Very little self preservation at times, I've gotten better as I get older thankfully.

My art and creativity buds when I get into manic spells.. It's better than being depressed.
This stuff you've linked above is truly wonderful to look at.  Never had guessed your artsy side. One of these days I'd love to get some canvas and paints and do some klye art on something other than a monitor. :)

Thanks for sharing @stellabelle. :)

Edit: Side blog sounds good. Although these days I tend to try and keep myself from doing things that are really out there.... My art and writing is my outlet. :)
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@johnsmith ·
I think... you were born for Steemit. Or... Steemit was born for you.
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@reneenouveau · (edited)
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This is a beautiful preview! I love that you have this traveling 'altar' so rich with personal symbolism!  I love that the shark is falling behind.

Also, I wish I could comment on your other reply (I'll just copy and past it here): 
"Dan and Ned have saved me from a life of drudgery. I always struggled with charging money for my artwork/videos/writing/collages/photography/graphics. Working at a company just doesn't make a lot of sense, but I am a bad self-promoter. I never made it "big" because I have ADD I think. I change themes/topics/mediums like on a weekly basis. One week I'm designing shoes, the next I'm studying the flying machines of Tesla. I make zero sense in the highly specialized business world. I worked for an inventor once too........that was my favorite job....anyway, I do like to make people feel good. I'm kind of addicted to that feeling. It makes me feel less depressed/obsessive."

This says everything I want to say. It totally speaks to me! I'm a generalist with interest in art and science and beyond. More often than not, I feel torn apart. I'm terrible at marketing so I haven't been able to carve my own niche and I get so bored at 'a job' that I become self-destructive (manic, depressed, no focus or willpower). It's a terrible spiral. But seeing the work you and klye and the other "cultural creatives" do, and the success you've had in the medium gives me hope. Thank you for everything you do.
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@stellabelle ·
you will succeed! Dive in, be yourself, your crazy self. The steemit community responds to untamed wild people!
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@stellabelle ·
your drunk makeup tutorial was funny! I wished you were totally smashed though! then you'd be viral.....Do another one completely drunk, like totally faded.
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@reneenouveau ·
Thank you for the kind words about my makeup tutorial! I'll drink harder next time, I promise! Fake eyelashes and red lipstick and everything!
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