 A lot of thoughts are juggled up in my mind and I'm just typing stuff here not sure if it'd make sense or not. I have to add that My Dad is telling me some things right now and it would be rude to be on my laptop while he is talking to me, so occasionally I chip in one or two comments. Did I just say my laptop? This ain't my laptop. The state of my laptop right now is depressing and my phone won't let me upload pictures when making posts so what's the point? This laptop is sleek though, uhm......what if he says I can have it? Dreamer! Lol! I miss being on steemit, for real. I miss the good old days, the small community, the exposure of posts to more people, the fun, the connections, the friendships. If you just make a new post it doesn't stay up to two seconds on the screen anymore. You have to scroll down to find your post, It's scary. I'm not saying I don't like the growth, I'm just saying it was fun then and posts were mostly about trying to connect with others, helping out newbies willingly if you could. Now nobody has anybody's time. At least that is how it looks. I miss blogging about random stuff too or telling stories or writing fiction. I don't even have time to cook stories anymore. I barely have enough time for my activities and I am thoroughly convinced that 24hours isn't 24hours anymore, it can't be. Someone must have tampered with time and all clocks move faster now. The speed is something else. I am really tired and my shoulders are heavy with bags of responsibilities and goals and expectations. I believe I work hard but it's not enough, my To-Do list is proof. Maybe I expect too much from myself, well, whatever. I gotta do what I gotta do.  When I look back at how far I've come, I guess that's something to be happy about. These days I've been facing different challenges that it feels like I'm in a hurdle race. Good thing is I'm winning. I just feel overwhelmed right now but I'm sure I will feel better in the morning. I traveled home this weekend and I don't have my laptop with me. I will make a post about what I've been up to in the past few months (apart from writing), I think it's important. For now, I just need to stay focused and not give up, it's not even an option. I started this post at 11:10pm and it is 12:55am already. I said it that something is not right. Do you agree with me now?
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Whatever is not right I believe it will be with time, itβs been long I read posts here , I just stumbled on yours and read to the end....this year is a really challenging one and I believe we will scale through π The moon π is near babe #HODL
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Thanks Dayjee
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