Please don't be ashamed, they see your heart is pure. I'd concur what that good heart wrote to you on whatsapp, but I don't make promises. I'll say this though, I don't know yet another human being that would go through half of what you have been through, and stayed sane. God would not put you through what He can't see you through, so when all the chips are down, at the very least, remember, He's got you. 
You don't need all these words now, so you can forget about them, but when you see @wakkylyon in comments or upvotes, let it be a sign that a piece of my heart was sent, to help hold yours together. 

And to everyone else out there going through stuff nobody knows about, God's got you fam. Please hang in there. You'll be fine.