I want to be a boat. by whatamidoing

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· @whatamidoing · (edited)
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I want to be a boat.
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I’m a cocktail of emotions.  Fear and doubt seek to contain me, as do the archaic structures and culture that are built upon the idea of lack.  It’s a faulty foundation, but one which has roots that have grown deep over the course of decades.  I feel them squeeze at me as they wrap around so thoroughly.   I once believed they could contain me.  

I know better now, but knowing and doing is not the same thing.  I am still in the process of breaking out, knowing it’s possible, doesn’t make it much easier.  I feel the energy required to move worlds building up in me every morning and being squelched by nightfall every night.  I feel the ropes bind me tighter than ever but my will to break them stronger still.

I feel myself channeling all kinds of inspiration into the world, but the weight of it is still too heavy for me.  I’m working on how to balance it all.  I wish so bad to be surrounded by passionate people who want to build something together.  In some ways I am, but in many ways, I’m still an island.  I’d like to be a boat.

I must still be incubating.  Is that the word?  Still becoming the person I need to be.  That’s the only way I can frame this, because I’ve already written so much more fun into this story than what I’ve seen these past few years.  

Eventually these ropes will have to give.  I feel it won’t be long.
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@elyas ·
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you want to be a boat? ha ha ha ha ha ha . you feel right
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@imp.unity ·
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Our vybe attracts our tribe. Sometimes we really can't see the way, clouded by the darkness of the shadow. But everywhere we are answers. 

Quitting the fantasies and planting the seeds is really the only way to lay the foundation.

When we plant seeds, we have to remember to nurture them at the beginning, until they can take care of themselves. It takes a while to turn an activity into a productive habit. The beginning is always the hardest and dissiest part of the growth project because that's when so many things can go wrong.

Sometimes we need to weed the garden. If the garden has been left untended for too long, this can be a grueling and unpleasant process.

Ultimately we are just intelligent life, not that much different to plants. We too can get sick when the conditions around us are not right.

Too acidic of an environment leads to pH problems, which affects the balance of our system.

A lack of nutrients, either from our environment or an inefficient absorbation of what is around can also cause problems.

I realize that putting our focus on other things than our ideas about the self (the ego self / imagined self / perceived self) really goes a long way.

At the end of the day, being of service to others is the simplest, most sophisticated and elegant form of self help.

The more we give, the more we end up getting.

It's all so counter-intuitive to what our globalized, individualistic post-modern societies inculcate us with, but that's because we have grown profoundly and dangerously unrooted/disconnected from the felt presence of immediate experience.

Finding our own, unique way of contributing, of offering the best of our creativity, ingenuity, talent and caring.

In the long run is the most rewarding, especially in the things which money cannot buy.

I pray you find your way to your bliss my brother xx

Peace n love 😘
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@whatamidoing ·
Brilliant.  I often feel I'm in a place where the pH isn't quite right for me, but it isn't easy to leave and so i need to find ways to change the environment, which is perfect because thats what I've always wanted to do, to take a situation that is looking undesired and turn it upside down for everyone, or at least for myself for others to see and do what they will with.  I think some of your comments illuminate little bits and pieces through the metaphors and comparisons you use.  Thanks :-D
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@builderofcastles · (edited)
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There is a huge problem.
You can see some of the future.
And the future is bright.

Soon, everything before 2012 will be called The Barbaric Age.

Everything that we take for normal is bad for humans.
Everything they teach in govern-cement schools is wrong.
The way we govern people is atrocious.

People blame the hungry not being fed on capitalism.  But, it isn't capitalism, as there are many ways that everyone on the planet could be fed, at a profit.
There are people (psychopaths) that want hungry people.  They want devastated and suffering people.  They want conflict and strife.

It will take a few generations, but war is already doomed.  It is easy to see, but it is very difficult to stop being always on guard for the other person to screw us.  We are taught that everyone is out to get us. That is hard to deprogram from.
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@carrieallen ·
I feel you, bro. 😎

But! I'm learning along side you. It's a lot to do, but as I add to my plate it somehow, even fuller, gets easier (and more rewarding) to manage.

But yes... I totally understand your feels here. Totally. 😍
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@artisticscreech · (edited)
I don't know, man. Barnacles seem like they would be pretty itchy lol.
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