![DSC_4445.JPG](https://ipfs.busy.org/ipfs/QmaarWRCV4jkcoKwVmWtwPSLwTx8tNEs7xPU38Bg8d5Sux) I'm naturally a really shy person who doesn't feel comfortable with big crowds, and like to hide in the shadows. That may sound a bit odd giving that I do videow. But I only started to do videos to ~~earn bigger payouts~~ push myself out from my shadow and conquer my fear of facing people. I'm so glad I did that. <center>![image.png](https://ipfs.busy.org/ipfs/QmWhp7mpMAAou2fAJVXrs8FxPDKsSbvBKFSgSh8tQ1h1DN)</center> Attending SteemFest is another hurdle I have to overcome. From the moment I step out of my front door I'm on my own. When I was working, I went away on frequent business trips and always dealt with everything myself. In recent years, I've always travelled with hubby when we go away. I just switch off my brain off and let him deal with everything right up to dragging me to the boarding gates when I'm still taking photos to post on my blog... This time I'm flying to Bangkok on my own. I'll have to fish my brain out from the cupboard to make sure I take it with me so I don't miss my flight. I guess meeting people is my biggest fear. A lot of people I know went to SteemFest last year, so they already know a lot of other people. I'm probably going to look a bit like Billy no mates whilst everyone else is doing their "Great to see you again!" and reminiscing the good times and jokes they shared last year. I always feel so awkard walking into a party when I don't know anyone, and I'm so worried that SF4 will be the same. If you do see me shying away in a corner and looking really worried , please come and say hello to me ☺️ The reason I don't enjoy hanging around with strangers is because I always feel that I'm really boring. Everybody seems to have so many intereresting stories to tell, and I don't gave any. No one likes to hang around with boring people ... Helppppp meeeeee !!!! Any other fears? Isn't that enough? There's only two more weeks to go before I fly out. Maybe if I don't think about it all, everything will be ok. I'll just do my usual and wing it and hopefully all my fears will go away.