![P_20180905_122242_p.jpg](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmV6KfwMh2f1w8MX3QUKXS2eXzGz2w5jZRq3CuY4wskTkc/P_20180905_122242_p.jpg) Today after eating my lunch I took my phosphate binder and I thought I have not eaten well enough because I haven't been able to finish a third of what I have cooked plus a few spoonfuls of rice so I decided to have some Muesli just to put some added nutrients into my body. Now I can just eat some bread with jam in the evening if I wanted to but I am done eating for this day. Certainly I will not eat some eat again maybe until tomorrow because I will be forced to take some of my phosphate binder which aren't cheap because they truly are as expensive as my parathyroid medicine. <center>![ezgif-2-aa807ac23d.gif](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmUVCtWxyMCrRAqMxAws6R3QGSNaHva1zd9ZiHDsH5BqR4/ezgif-2-aa807ac23d.gif)</center> It is okay though because I get the support of the steem community plus I really have no plans for those expensive trips, buying clothes, shoes and what not. I just needed God, my Internet, and my medicines and maybe foods that I order online. I still have this long-standing appetite issue and it starts after dialysis and as days go nearer to the dialysis time it gets harder and header to take some food in. It gives me always the thought to give up but giving up is harder because of it repercussions, I rather die fighting this medical problem because at least I took the challenge and not run off.