KARENA RASA TAK MAMPU MENJELASKAN by hariszulvianda

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KARENA RASA TAK MAMPU MENJELASKAN
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Malam mulai larut kesedihan belum pun berlalu
Air mata telah habis, rasa itu pun tak kunjung pergi
Telah habis waktu ku memikirkan namun tak jua hilang dalam ingatan

0852....... Pemilik nomor yang ketika aku melihatnya segunung duka pun kan sirna dan terhempaskan.

Ibu. Iya dialah pemilik nomor ini. Aku sungguh sangat membutuhkanmu saat ini, ingin kucurahkan semua rasa dan inginku ceritakan pedihnya hatiku saat ini.

Saat suara mulai terdengar di seberang pulau melalui telepon genggam air mata yang telah keringpun kembali basah.

Tak kulihat namun telah kuketahui
Tak kau jelaskan namun telah kupahami
Tak kau ungkapkan namun kumenyadarinya

Maafkan anakmu ini yang belum dewasa dalam memilih

Sebatas mata memandang itulah yang mampu kupahami

Tak mampu kumelihatnya sampai keburukan menjadi kebaikan dimataku

Tertutup keburukannya karena manusia yang menilai

"Apa yang bisa ibu lakukan untukmu agar kau kembali tersenyum?"

Aaaaahhhh airmatapun mengalir deras. Sungguh tak kuasa untuk menjawab pertanyaanmu

Telah kukumpulkan energi positif untuk membantuku menjawab pertanyaanmu.

"Sudahkah ibu sholat isya saat ini?"
"Belum nak" jawab ibuku

"Sholatlah dulu bu dan doakan anakmu agar tetap kuat, mampu bersabar menghadapi semua ini dan ............ Selesai sholat akan kupanggil ibu kembali"

"Baiklah nak" jawab ibu penuh kelembut

Jampun telah menunjukan pukul 23:45 karena mata tak mampu tertutup berita pagi kemarin yang dilontarkan lewat chat messenger menjadi alasan mata tak meminta haknya malam ini.

Ingin ku seperti mereka tidur tanpa beban bangun dengan senyuman.

Akankah senyum mampu kupersembahkan seperti hari sebelumnya?

Akankah kebahagiaan mampu membersamaiku besok?

Akankah semangat menyambutku esok pagi?

Lantunan merdu ayat suci yang di bacakan di leptop seketika menghapuskan pemikiran bodoh itu.

Bodoh bodoh bodoh sungguh bodohnya pemikiran seperti itu.

Sedih telah membunuhku
Kecewa telah menyiksaku
Marah telah bersahabat denganku
Benci telah menghantuiku

Pergi pergi pergi
Bukan kau yang diinginkan hati sesungguhnya
Bukan pula kau yang cocok dengan hati ini

Sepenuhnya kuserahkan padaMu Illahi Rabbi

Tak ada kekuatan selain kekuatanMu

Tak ada perlindungan selain perlindunganMu

Tak ada kekuasaan selain kekuasaanMu

Tak ada pilihan terbaik selain pilihanMu

Tak ada janji terbaik selain janjiMu

Dan tak ada pengobat selain mengingatMu

Kumerintih dan bersimpuh padaMu Illahi Rabbi.

Kumohon ya Rabb jika rizky masih dilangit turunkanlah
Kumohon ya Rabb jika rizky masih dibumi keluarkanlah
Kumohon ya Rabb jika sukar mudahkanlah
Jika haram halalkanlah
Jika jauh dekatkanlah

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Kan ada pelangi setelah hujan
Kan ada senyum setelah duka
Kan ada bahagia setelah kesedihan
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