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Almost Over
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***

Today, I have no words 
I will sit here and let it take me
This feeling I have no control over 
This thing calling my name and filling my senses
Whispering and beckoning to me

Today, my eyes are twitching 
They are filled up and ready to spill 
Tears I have refused to shed 
Because it’s pointless to cry 
It solves nothing in the end

Today, I try to forget myself in a book 
It used to work but not anymore 
The words blur before they turn dark
They have no meaning no more 
I have lost my safe heaven

Today, I’m  failing at a lot of things 
They say it gets worse before it gets better 
I’m trying to believe it but I’m not succeeding 
Truth is, I don’t want to try anymore 
I just want to say here and let it overpower me

Today, I need a saviour
A dark knight or an angel to rescue me
Funny it may sound for someone so strong
I cannot do it on my own now
I'm too weak to survive if I try

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Less than 24 hours to go. I watched my brother's tears fall last night (mine are lurking), and listened to others tell both good and bad tales. I hope I make it through. 

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