I experienced some intense emotions the night of day 2.  I experienced unsettlement within myself where it's like my nerves were on edge.  I faced a point of desperation within myself.  There was this part of me that I've allowed to be at the whim of my emotion/feeling pull and push.  Like this point of willing to justify anything that is pushing on my nerves hard enough.

This intensity I experienced in the evening - I didn't really react to it so much as I just embraced it and welcomed the point....this supported me with going deeper into much introspection.

There really was a lot of intense moments that came out of it.

* Showcased to me that yes cigarettes have been a serious soother for me....to calm my nerves.

* Showcased to me that I've placed comfort and dependence upon smoking as a way to deal with the discomforts that arise in me based on my thinking.

* Showcased to me that I've massively discounted my self-worth.


Points of care taking support to accommodate me in letting go of smoking and walking the 21 day process:

* I had my green drink

* I went for a couple of walks.

* I rode my bicycle for an hour.

* I had an Epsom Salt Bath last night.

* pushups, squats, stretching

* I went to bed a bit earlier (for me)...created some quiet time before sleep to digest all of the day and the changes I made within myself.  Woke up way earlier today without any effort.  Was stoked to begin my day even earlier :)

* Self-Forgiveness

* Friendly engagement with my neighbors.  


I made a vlog this morning and talked about some of the intensity from the night before.  A point that came through for me was specifically, ***Self-Vulnerability*** .  For me, this is a point of self-exposure...seeing everything of yourself.  A willingness to look at the things within yourself that are most unpleasant...and even disturbing.

The video log itself was a point of self-vulnerability for me as I had resistance to making the video this morning and just talking about what I went through the night before.  It was shameful for me to see that I've had such suppression within myself...and that cigarettes in a lot of ways have been a soother and a comfort stick for me to avoid getting real about the shit beneath the surface within myself.


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