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· @atopy ·
$15.85
When you suck
>Addiction is a biopsychosocial disorder. It's a combination of your genetics, your neurobiology and how that interacts with psychological and social factors. That basically means that addiction is a chronic disorder - like type 2 diabetes, cancer and heart disease. (Maureen Boyle from the National Institute of Drug Abuse)

And also sounds much better then @atopy, a complete and utter idiot who likes smoking.

I smoked cigarettes, rolled tobacco and now swapped to vaping. Smoking has always been my 5. My five minutes of peace and a short break. It is my start and end point. In my deluded mind it keeps me organized. I finished middle school for nursing, I walked on the hallways of oncology, and I’ve seen how a healthy and smokers lungs look like in the flesh. A friend died of lung cancer just 2 years ago … and while typing all this I just dragged one in.

How my smoking started? Very early actually. It started when I was a baby and I sucked my thumb and to my shame did that for the longest time, even though my parents did everything possible for me to stop. When the thumb was out I started biting my nails. After nails followed my hair and of course through all the stages there was food. Until I found smoking at age 16. 

Now by psychology standards this could have simply been my coping skill. A child sucking her thumb for the sake of feeling soothed and calmed like a baby in the womb. Regarding my upbringing that theory was just fine with me and I took it. Until later when I learned about sensory integration and worked with children who had the heaviest mental and physical disability. 

> Sensory integration is about how our brain receives and processes sensory information so that we can do the things we need to do in our everyday life. There is a theory of sensory integration and a therapeutic approach based on the theory.

In very generalizing and simplistic way explained you all know it. People who can’t sit still for 2 minutes, people you give a gentle tap on the shoulder and scream: auuuuuuu, people who are bothered by sounds or bright light, people who hate socks or specific material, people who don’t like to eat certain structure of food, people who in the middle of winter walk around in shorts, etc. etc. 

Simply put we receive or process information we get from our environment differently. The issue occurs where we over or under respond to the stimuli. With children with special needs that is easily spotted. Body rocking, body harm, hand flapping, making noises, etc. Simply stimming themselves in different ways.

Was I simply stimming myself orally all this time? Guess it all depends which expert you ask.

And all of this sounds better than simply - @atopy an idiot who can’t bare the feel of socks, structure of baby/mushy food, off-beat music and likes to suck. 

![old.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmaisENfhHTpp16vbr62nPD2mwnJEnM58kdk6NtCb3Zerw/old.png)

Done in Corel Painter.
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@sarmad117 ·
Smoke of cigarette is more dangerous to one sitting with smoker than smoker.
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@agneslaczo ·
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![your post got my attention.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmeXzT3btFEtrcsnjRirTfaUBwKUKVifTNYjnj2f79noWm/your%20post%20got%20my%20attention.jpg)

I enjoyed reading your story, and this artwork of yours is awesome too ! :-)
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@khanshinwari ·
@atopy  smoking is the perfect way to commit suicide without actually dying
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@honeydue ·
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I must say old @atopy smoking looks completely badass ;)
Sure, it's bad to smoke, or to have any addiction, but I don't think you can escape them. Everyone has something, whether they like it or not, admit it or not. ;)
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@abdt ·
wow extremly great art
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@donnadavisart ·
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You are killing it with these smoke imagies (I'm calling these your 'smoke series') :)

I love a fag now and again. I find I smoke more often in the city, at coffee breaks sitting outdoors. When I'm in the country I seem to only smoke if and when we have an outdoor fire in the evening  other than that I'll go months without even thinking about them.
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@sumsum007 · (edited)
This old lady looks like devil.But painting is excellent.
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@aboutcoolscience ·
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I see you have been on steemit since July 2017 only now I noticed your work, I think I missed out! I really like your style! Also, the drawing you made for suesa was really cool. I am helping some artists that want to produce some images to be released to the public domain, if you could be interested in this project there are more details in the following link: https://steemit.com/witness-update/@davinci.art/a-project-to-encourage-the-release-of-art-to-the-public-domain
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@atopy ·
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Hi. First of - ty. :) I don't want to sound dubious but I don't know if the project will work here on steemit. It could I guess...but looking at the majority of "population" here, I think there isn't much people who would buy images. With sites like pixabay etc. why should you? :) 

I do a comission here and there...but its rare. It is hard for me to draw for other people or should I say draw on demand. This is my hobie. I sit down when I have the time and when im motivated. :) But I will give the project a second thought...ty again. :)
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@aboutcoolscience ·
Thank you for your reply, in some regards you are right, I'm sure many people would not use our service but I think that for some other it could be convenient, for example when people write science posts, often it's difficult to find a suitable image on pixabay and having someone to make a custom diagram or drawing could be convenient. Anyway, your work it's great, and even if you just want to come and say hello you would be welcome on our discord server: https://discord.gg/QHY85Vk I would be delighted to see you there
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@sandrina.life ·
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You are such a great graphic, atopy!!! I have been controlling all my potential addictions, from coffee to cigs to alcohol. Now that I am 33, I seem to be more loose and to be more open to addiction. Scary, isn't it?
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@atopy ·
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I'm gonna be 35 soon. Odd thing is I can let go coffee easy (i tried before and had no issues) - I just refuse to quit it lol. I never tried anything else but tobacco....wonder if I tried anything stronger if that would hook me up too.

....I think we just think about it more. I'm pretty sure u didn't give a rats ass if u smoked at 20s. :) I think what changes is our way of thinking. I think we finally realise we are aging....people around us getting old, sick and even dying, etc etc. So I think we just grow up and look on it differently. Its not necesarily true...but just my line of thinking i guess.
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@creativecrypto ·
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Hello @atopy, thank you for sharing this creative work! We just stopped by to say that you've been upvoted by the @creativecrypto magazine. [The Creative Crypto](https://thecreativecrypto.com/) is all about art on the blockchain and learning from creatives like you. Looking forward to crossing paths again soon. Steem on!
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@atopy ·
Oh ty. :)
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@james1122 ·
 Awesome post!! Keep it up and check out [THIS POST](https://steemit.com/life/@cryptopaparazzi/chapter-one-let-there-be-the-man-and-there-was-a-man-let-there-be-a-woman-and-there-was-sex) as well as I have something similar. 
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@rodrigozottis ·
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The athmosphere in this one is superb as well! I found it very difficult to draw faces from this angle. Congratulations!
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