<center></center> My mother approached me asking me if I want to have some pork meat or the Chicken meat to eat today and she will buy it. I told her that whichever because no matter what I chose or whatever dish that she would serve I will not be able to enjoy eating anyway. It is because of my appetiteloss, it sucks to suffer from it. I had been enduring it for more than two years now after I went for my Cinacalcet therapy. I hope that I will not have to suffer from Cinacalcet anymore but it is the side-effect if my needed medicine. Unfortunately I cannot stop taking Cinacalcet or else I will go back suffering from severe joints pains once again. That is why I will be going bankrupt trying to sustain my medical therapy needs just for me to avoid one thing but will suffer from another. It is a funny but depressing situation. I do not know if I would like to continue my life as I do not even enjoy even a simple basic body function like eating anymore. Nothing that I could ever do now but to move forward and continue to try to improve my life and be more patient and trust God on what he can do for me. I am fed-up about anything, I can't do much in my life but to hope for a better things to come if they would ever come because most of the good things in my life had flown away already. I know that I have to not lose hope and I never had judging by the fact that I am still around. If only I could end it all buy just a flick of a switch but it is not that so easy. I am a spiritual person and that option is not on the table. So I have to keep strong and keep on fighting even though most of the people in my life already gave-up on me.
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| author | cryptopie |
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| root_title | "I'm Not Looking Forward To Eating Today Because Of My Appetiteloss" |
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