https://youtu.be/wpq7wn2YPYU?list=RDwpq7wn2YPYU

This evening after I woke-up I am just feeling sad and blue, maybe because it was grey all day and it was raining. I also had slept most of the afternoon, it is because I am not drinking much coffee anymore and in effect my brain really isn't that so stimulated when it comes to my mood.

I only use Caffeine at my dialysis day, so after my dialysis there is still a residual effect of Caffeine and it makes me feel "okay" until the effect eventually gets handled by my liver and countered by my Gabapentin.

A few hours later is the crash of my mood and I could not just drink Coffee willy-nilly anymore because it had an adverse effect to my bones which I am so painfully trying to manage and at least make it stop losing Calcium.

Anyway I would just use entertainment medias like my favorite music which I play once in a while if I wanted to just release tensions in my thoughts and feelings. It does help because I liked what I am listening to even though I could not head-bang or dance around.

https://youtu.be/WM8bTdBs-cw
[Src](https://youtu.be/WM8bTdBs-cw)
<center>__Why I Feel Emotional When I Listen To These Two Songs? I Often Associate Their Lyrics To My Situation__</center>

Some says that music soothes even the savage beast and I do think it is true because this Lionman is being soothed good thank goodness for the Internet(again) at least I could have an extra distraction where when I am feeling blue my songs are all there ready and will help me fix my emotions especially with the kind of reality that I am living with which for most people are just a nightmare.