The lack of passion for something without the negative condemnations, the difference between good and bad. I have been getting a lot of how you feeling questions as of late but framed with a hue of projected positivity. My best answer is simply indifferent, I suppose that is better then normal.

Let’s consider the emotional spectrum as a flat plain oriented positive to negative. The point perfectly in the middle would be indifferent. That spot where the two opposing forces meet, sounds like it should be neutral but it is not. The fact that it is placed perfectly in the middle, stuck being forced in two different directions says so. I may be in the middle but it feels intensely volatile.

My question is, are those forces pulling or pushing? To achieve this state of indifference the forces must be balanced but that does not mean they are steady, more like a boat tied to the dock constantly moving but not going anywhere. So I imply that the emotional spectrum is a forced constant environment, in the same way you cannot escape your body so to you cannot escape your emotions. These are not attractive forces but rather repulsive, now if you have ever played with magnets then you know what I mean by not steady. Try as you may to hold two repulsive magnets perfectly still there will be some slipping around.

To get a full idea of how this works we need to imagine a pie chart, each emotion has it own slice and they all meet in the middle. The area and strength of the emotion is relative to attractive forces of similar emotions vs the opposite. You are a score of points in each relative emotion mapped like a net being stretched across the chart. Normal shape for you is most likely fairly rounded. For simplistic sake let’s imagine top good bottom bad, really it’s a big mishmash because relative effects can be considered both good and bad. 

I have stated I feel like constant turmoil yet fairly indifferent so my shape would be stretched across the dividing line between the two sides. Now remember the forces at play are always shifting around amongst themselves relative to each sections strength so not only am I feeling stretched across the middle I am also feeling pressure from either side. Pressure that is inconsistent in which section is pushing but consistent on the divide maintaining a perfect 50/50 balance.

Long explanation as to why I am not vlogging right now, I am not feeling it. I have my vacation coming up and I hope to recharge a bit, doesn’t that explain it perfectly? I start my vacation tomorrow and this is the first I am mentioning it, just kinda happening with no real thought about anticipation.

### Things I plan to do when my head is back in the game:
- Giveaway Post, I have to do this still, I want to do this still
- Faces of #OneLoveDTube Posts, I started the ball and have a few entries that need to be uploaded on the main account.
- Delegation, I need to make a decision who what where any why! Thinking about delegations to support my supporters and it’s a fairly complex answer to maximize returns for everyone.
- #OneLoveDTube Community, many projects on the go to which I need to pay more attention.


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