xmas feels by dunstuff

xmas · @dunstuff · Dec 24 '19

$0.10

xmas feels

yay. another xmas.
another day where all the people are smiling and laughing and having fun.
its 9 am. first thought when i awoke this morning was 'maybe i should just kill myself'

xmas is hard for me.
been 3 and a half years now since mum passed.
lost my nan a month later.

the joys of being an orphan.
funny how i was the popular kid at school, cos i smoked weed,
and knew all the people that could get me the drugs i didnt use.
and then i quit drugs, and moved away for a couple years.
had the same phone number for 12 years. but it never rings.

eminem - stan
'And all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call....'
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@dunstuff · Dec 24 '19

https://www.sbs.com.au/nitv/nitv-news/article/2017/12/19/christmas-one-worst-times-year-less-fortunate

👍 dunstuff

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@dunstuff · Dec 24 '19

https://www.monash.edu/news/opinions/happy-christmas-not-for-everyone

👍 dunstuff

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