그럼에도 불구하고 by jsj1215

hive-132971 · @jsj1215 · Aug 1 '20

$17.47

그럼에도 불구하고

젊음은 나이가 아니라 마음이라는 말들을 한다.

장미 빛 두 뺨, 탄력 있는 두 다리가 곧 젊음은 아니다라고, 하지만 요즘 나는 의지 ,상상력 , 열정이 사라지고 있는듯 느껴진다.

눈치 빠른 행동도
어려움을 뚫고 나가는 용기도 사라진듯 하고...!

인생은 나이로 늙는 것이 아니라 이상의 결핍으로 늙는것 같다.

세월따라 피부에 주름이 생기고 마음에도 주름이 지고 있다.

고뇌와 공포와 자포자기

하지만 그 속에서도 희망을 가져오려고 노력한다.


![20200726_095223.jpg](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmdXZ5dDb6uido64ePX8GtqMDmMG6F8NrTdwaTGfMyWjfv/20200726_095223.jpg)

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