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I'm not referring here, to the modern parlance associated to the term, 'white knighting'
Show me a 'white knight', and I'll black knight the fuck out of them!
>Black knighting (modern parlance)
An individual embracing trolling and ad hominem attacks on a message board, focused upon a single hapless poster. This is regardless of the topic of conversation and how correct the poster is. The natural converse to white knighting
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### _MY_ BLACK KNIGHTING...
Standing up for truth by destroying the toxic effects of the disingenuous, the politician, and the stupidly egotistical, as I perceive them.
Is my ego involved in this? Yeah, damn right...
But maybe not how you first think it is....
Before I go into greater detail, let me tell you a little about my background, and the reasons that go some way to explaining _why_ , I do what I do.
From as young as I can remember, I had to _defend_ myself, against attacks from people 50 years older than myself (give or take a decade, depending who's turn it was to do the attacking).
Bullied?
Nah, fuck that.
You can only _ever_ be bullied or a _victim_ , if you choose to accept that dichotomy.
I was never bullied, or a victim.
Fuck that.
I was attacked for pointing out truths to people who felt _entitled_ to be right, because of age (or something equally ludicrous).
I was never bulled.
I always stood my ground, even when I was a seven year old and surrounded by four adults over 40, telling me I was wrong( when I wasn't)
Fuck them.
Fuck that.
Fuck 'em twice, in fact.
It molded me of course - to a large extent, to the character that I am today. For sure.
I recognize this, and accept it.
Know thyself.
And guess what?
#### .....I _like_ who I am.... Warts an' all.
(not the genital kind, though.....Ewwwwwwwwww)
So, it's the briefest of backgrounds to help illustrate to you where I'm coming from and what motivates me.
I hate bullying for starters.
The reasons as to _why_ are pretty self explanatory after reading the above paragraph. I could always stand up for myself.
I also detest the victim mentality. (for reason which are also apparent from the above paragraph)
For me, there are not victims or bullies, there are right ideas and wrong ones. Not as subjective opinion, but as an objective _fact_.
#### Gravity brings you down, and helium takes you up, that kind of thing.
#### Between those two facts lies a whole world of exploration, and this is where fact and fiction are disseminated and identified.
This is where the bullshitter meets reality, through argument.
The 'battleground of discussion', that lies somewhere between these two extremes becomes the arena.
It's where ideas go up against each other and then fight it out.
It's competitive by it's very nature, and it's combative in it's mechanics.
#### So, back to my 'Black Knighting....'
I will come to the aid of good ideas being attacked by bad ones - just as _I will attack_ bad ideas before they get the chance to spread.
Bad ideas are like cancer.
It's better to stop it in it's tracks when you see it, rather than let it fester, and then spread to other healthy cells of the ecosystem.
And this, my friends has been my blessing (and burden), throughout most of my life.
Drum roll and trumpets for the martyr, if you please !
(...and don't confuse my humorous quip, with suffering from any 'martyr complex'. )
I laugh at myself , a lot....
But I will not let _bad ideas_ and _faulty logic_ or processes, stand.
I CANNOT sit idly by, and watch idiocy gain legitimacy.
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It will not happen. Ever. In real life or online.
(after reading my brief background, I'm sure you can appreciate _why_ this is hardwired into me).
And I'm happy with my wiring, thank you very much.
So......moving on, and better understanding my motivation behind what I do, and _why_.
My actions can be sometimes perceived as _'bullying'_.
(accusations mostly thrown from the direction of the unconscious, insecure bully).
_'Mocking'_, which I do to highlight idiocy.
My pleasure derived from this exercise, comes solely from the wit I employ for the mocking process - and as such , is very ego driven.
_'Attacking someone'_ – if the ideas are bad ?– always.
And yes, ego _does_ play a part in this sphere of my life.
I do not deny it.
I _take pleasure_ (the ego), in defeating bad ideas, especially when other people see the victory.
If your not competitive , stay out of the public arena.
_It's an 'adults only' space, and there ain't no safety here..._
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Is this a good thing or a bad one?
I don't know, to be honest.
I've thought about it long and hard, , and still haven't come up with definitive answer.
I _do_ think ego can be used for the positive, as in the way I get a _thrill_, from being victorious in the war of ideas.
(but it can be a tricky little fucker. You always have to be aware of it – 'cos it will happily stab you in the back, without a word of warning, if your'e not careful).
You have to know thyself before you can have _any thoughts_ to ever contemplate controlling it.
Which brings me to @tarazkp.... specifically, and _very_ intentionally.
#### The motivation behind this post.
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Anyone reading mine (or his) blog over this last two years, will have witnessed the conflict we have, that's been ongoing.
I really, _really dislike_ the intercourse that we have.
I _dislike_ the critical attention that I give to his blogs. I hate the time I spend on them , when I could be having much more fun elsewhere.
So why do I do it then?
Why not just walk away?
I cannot, that's why.
Think of this heavy serious shit, as 'work'. I cannot shirk work, for 'fun'.
I do not operate that way, and never have.
#### 'Get yer shit done', so you can _enjoy your leisure time to the fullest.._
### _Do you understand _nothing_ of what I've just been writing above?_ lol.
_Bad ideas_ are a cancer in the world.
_Word salads_ are cancer to honest communication in the world.
_Politicking_ is a cancer to integrity and openness in the world.
_Close mindedness_ is a cancer on expansion and growth.
And I will do my best to show the world the cancers.
Prevention is always better than cure, so if you're aware of it's presence - you can take steps to mitigate it's effects. (ie. Read philosophy and critical thinking - and fucking _apply it_.)
_Then_ you don't get fooled by world salad charlatans.
_Then_ you can open your mind
_Then_ you can see through the politician.
#### _THEN_ ....the good ideas replace the bad ones....
If Tarazkp wasn't incessantly posting bilge, I would be much happier.
(He has some _very good_ and _intelligent_ gems of observations and insights, btw_, interspersed in the bilge)
I do not _choose_ to feel the way I do, about injustices. ( legitimized bad logic are a crime against the truth)
I am (happily) hardwired this way.
_I cannot walk away from an intellectual crime scene_.
### I will _not walk away_ from people spreading bad ideas, unsound logic, and disingenuous politicking.
(A lot of it, isn't even conscious, bless. But it soon will be. I promise).
Question:
_Could you_ walk away from a young child who's drowning, and crying out for you help?
_Any answer other than 'NO' will require you to _immediately_ check yourself into the local clinic for psychiatric help.
(Or shoot yourself - both are viable options, but bear in mind that one option may be much better for society, than the other)_.
It's 'not a choice' to help the drowning child, due to some strange genetic hard wiring.
(Most probably).
_My point being, is that we are ALL hardwired, in some fashion or other, and I understand my wiring system to large degree - through a necessity, not luxury - and I accept it._
How many people can say the same thing?
(...this _isn't_ an ego driven, competitive kind of statement, btw - know the difference).
I've already told you about my hard wiring, and I've already told you that _I like who I am_.
This doesn't mean it's a a bed of roses, this understanding - far from it - but I _would_ say that _without_ engaging this 'Black Knighty thingy ' part of me - I would , in my own eyes - be a 'lesser man' for it.
A 'smaller' human being.
The ego part of me, allows me to take _some pleasure_, from otherwise unpleasurable , experiences.
(ya gotta take your pleasures where you can).
#### _I take no pleasure in shooting a dog. But I will shoot it, if it's worrying sheep. And without a moments hesitation_ ,I might add
(and yes, I have, actually, done it).
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### I love dogs (ideas), I love sheep (people), and I love guns (the power to influence the outcome of toxicity permeating society).
#### I won't let the sheep get worried by the dog, not while I'm breathing and not while have a gun in my hand....
So you see, it's not @tarazkp per se - it's his twisted perspectives that are my target.
He reminds me of me, before I grew up. (in more ways than will go into, on this post).
A quick segue...!!!
#### My definition of 'growing up'.
Is to have your ego _so crushed_ that it makes graphene look bulky, in comparison.
To have your heart _truly_ broken - as an adult.
Neither are remotely pleasurable, and I couldn't recommend either of them.
I would also highly recommend both of them - if you want to grow up.
A shit choice, I know - but no one said life was easy. Pay yer price, and make yer choices.
A good barometer for 'the heartbroken' stakes....
(this judging from the hundreds - if not thousands- of people, that Ive presented this illustration to, so as to best describe this horrible experience)....
When your heart get broken, it mends (time scale varies).
But the scars that remain from the break , dictates that _it will never quite beat the same_ as it did before it was broken.
Everyone I know who've I've talked to about this, can identify with this description.(if they've gone though it of course).
Those who haven't, can conceptualize it, but not _get it_ .
Do not _feel_ the truth in the words.
Segue over...
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Why am I writing this?
To justify my position?
Yeah right, fuck off.
I'm writing this for myself.
I'm writing this so I can start to put down some thoughts, so I can condense it to one poignant paragraph, that will be the header of _every reply and comment_, I ever do to @tarazkp.
I have no interest in taraz per se – I only know him as a pale shadow of myself, and he acts as a very useful tool to illustrate everything that I want to point out, with what is wrong with the world.
(he's not responsible personally, so give him a break!lol)
Thanks @tarazkp , matey.
It really is nothing personal. ( I know that you will see it as _exactly that_ ,though ).
'Tis a burden I (un) happily take on my shoulders.
To not do so- for me - would be for me to play small. I try not to do 'playing small' if I can.
_I'm not calling taraz cancer_ . lolol. I _am_ calling him out, though.
..._I am_ calling many of his ideas and perspectives that are 'cancerous' in their substance, yes.
(don't worry, dear reader - he won't get offended – he never reads my posts anymore...honest..he told everyone on a post a while back...yeah, right...and I have a unicorn to sell).
What am I hoping to _gain_ from this? (Popularity? lmao!!)
Giving his posts so much of my time and attention is _not_ a gain, believe me.
Firstly, I gain because it _helps me_ clarify my own perspectives.
Rarely have I had the 'pleasure' of one person dong this consistently for me, day after day. After day.....after day.
Secondly (firstly), it makes me feel good – even if it wears me out. If you're not worn out by attacking, your not really putting the effort into the attack it deserves.
Don't be lazy when in conflict.
Thirdly, it gives a record of events (it's ego driven), and hopefully helps to wake people up, if not taraz himself.
He's not stupid, he just focuses his intelligence in completely the wrong areas.
He _great_ at answering his own questions.
But he's _shite_ at working out the right questions to ask himself.
(an ego in charge, is a destructive thing).
Fourthly, it might drive him away from posting bilge on Steem(it).
(This last one is SOOOOOooooo ego driven, btw - It means _I WIN_!!!!).
I'm competitive by nature, as is taraz( he continually denies it, for some reason.... self deception? intentionally trying to deceive? Or just not knowing himself? ....We will find out, that's for sure, in the coming weeks).
....This is yet another case of 'the T-shirt doesn't say how the mouth behaves'.
They are _numerous_!.
#### For example, I've yet to meet a self employed business man/entrepreneur, that _isn't_ competitive.
How does 'I'm not very competitive', fit into a 'self motivated business man, with their own company'?
Business _is_ competition.
It does not compute.
This is just one (of many) inconsistencies that I will be highlighting, going forwards, but _not with the intention to rip tarazkp, a new one_ - it really isn't - but it's to perfectly highlight that disingenuous and the weak positions stem from talking BS.
_A politician will say anything to gain adoration and support from the crowd, and will also forget everything that he's ever said previously. Contradiction is irrelevant to the politician, but not to those with integrity_.
Filling the gaping holes in tarakp 's world perspective does everyone a favor – including himself.(ego allowing).
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So, that's me, Black Knighting - from my own perspective.
I apologize to no one for it.
I never will.