Hello Namaste hola friends. Our greatest steemian @surpassinggoogle has organized a contest, untelanted 2 ,before and after steemit. 

# Before steemit 

My life was monotonous. Everyday doing the same works, households work, school teaching students. Same works, no newness. 

I had already mentioned in my first post that, my life was too much boring, I am lonely, single at this age of 45 no friends. Great responsibility for my kids their studies, secured future, little salary. I was living ,just have to go without support from any others. 



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Me before joining steemit. 



I had lost every one, my beloved father, mother and my husband. You know friends I had passed such an ugly time where I had compelled to think about suicide at least about 1000times in my life. But every time my two sons become my living power. 


I'm also a human being I have also feelings, but every time I have to suppress my emotions, as I am a mother  a woman I have no right to think of my happiness. My life is not my own, I have to live, I have to laugh, though I have lots of grief in my hearts, but have to laugh. 


 Sometimes I think, is the world has over populated?Why I have no friends, to whom I can share my thoughts. You can't tell everything with your kids, I never make them unhappy, so every time I have to show up with them that I am OK. 


Every time I was inseach of good medias where I can share my thoughts. I was compelled to in search a situations where I could not utter any words. My husband was a teacher, but was addicted to alcohol. I had to fached lots of difficulties for him, at that time my kids were very small, we had lived in a hut made up of mud and stay. But I never lose my patience. 


Every time the face of my beloved kids hanging around me, I thought if I do something about unfair like as suiside, what will happen to them. Every time they become my life. 
  


Friends I had passed my last ten years in the mids of tensions and anxiety. Mostly my husband's behavior, hurt me much though he never had scolded me or hurt me physically but his addiction. 

At least he had left the world at the age of 46 after his death I had become too lonely, the greatest responsibility for my two kids, their future all the time I was wondering what to do with my little earnings. But still I didn't lose hope. 



You know friends, my two sons are pretty smart. Both are now remain in this community. My elder son @rahul.stan is quite familiar in steemit community. He had introduced me in this greatest and awesome world. 



# After steemit. 

I have no words what is this community for me. It is my friend philoshaper and guide in my journey of real life and also my professional life. I didn't even heard the name of steemit community before the month of May in 2017. At first I did not believe about the greatness of this community, but thanks to my beloved son @rahul.stan who had thaught me every possible way. 


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Me with food distribution program for the flood victims with the help of steemit community.

Friends  I had no idea how to use internet before joining steemit. But now I am quite confident about the use of these at least a little bit of modern technology. 


In the mids of you friends I had already done many things from the earnings of steemit. I had done two of my welfare programs (food distribution program) for the flood victims of my locality. I had got much supports from the veturn steemians like @exyle,  @firepower, @markwhittam @kafkanarchy, @kus-knee @therealpaul, etc. 


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Me with the food distribution program. 

Slowly I came to know about the working of crpto world and latest technology and the use of steem power. 
I have also knowledge that how many great steemian's have been working for the development of the community by organising various competitions, in this particular contest untelanted @surpassinggoole have done a very great job by creating awareness among people about steemit community and about the importance of people's telents. 



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Me with the green colour.

I had already asked his permission to enter into the contest ,I want to tender my heartest gratitude to him for his so liberal thinking as I am not so much technically telanted .


# conclusion 

It is an energy drink who ones drink it, can never able to forget it's taste. I am becoming addicted of steemit community, Every time thought arises ,what to write today, what to post today etc.... Friends I have some problems still now as the generation gap problems, exist within me. I don't understand the new innovation and ideas of technology. I have to go through with this. I expect @surpassinggoole might help me in near future. I want to finish my writing with the greatest thought of the greatest steemians @surpassinggoogle.."Hundred times I can forgive you ".

I was influenced greatly with this thought. I have found this line in our great epic Mahabharata, where Lord Krish had said that to one of his opponent Sisupala. Namaste. 

Image... From my son's smart phone.