Glad you are feeling better, @papa-pepper. We all have days when we feel discouraged and overwhelmed. It can't be helped as we are only human. Glad you found someone to talk it over with and took some time for yourself. We all need to recharge the batteries from time to time.

@papa-pepper Hoping all is well. Is ok to slow down, as long as we keep going forward :)

You will come back stronger again...you are an inspiration to many here so you have everyone's blessing...
What were you talking about moving into a city?you moving?
You have a beautiful family with such sweet kids..be happy and have an awesome day because
"TODAY IS THE PERFECT DAY TO BE HAPPY"

we all get that sometimes!   ANd you put so much out in the open...in public.  It is bound to drain you sometimes.

Hope it was just a minor blip and you are feeling 100% soon.... but even if not, it is okay.  Most of us get hit with some downs every once in a while.

Thanks for all you do and take care of yourself!

@papa-pepper, thank you for being vulnerable enough with us to show us all of you, not just the good and fun, but also the ugly and depressing. It’s during times like this where we can lean on each other and say, “I know what you’re feeling.” It reminds us that the other is human too and relatable. Fear of being vulnerable is what keeps people apart, and again, I thank you for showing us not just the good, but the sad too. 
P.S. I love how you can keep your sense of humor through it all!

The cantaloupe eating session sure cheered me up! 
I can sure relate to your frustration with going to town but love my country life!

wow awesome sir..i like it..thanks for share..

Hey @papa-pepper. Thanks for sharing this video, all the way through I just wanted to give you the biggest hug! The great thing about your whole life project is that you have so many things to do. When something like not having the right bolt  presents itself, you just put down your tools and move on to another job you are able to do. Instead of even thinking to go to town for a bolt you add it to a list of things you need from town  and move on to another job. When the list for town gets long enough it will be worth the time to go. Frustration is not necessary, when something like this stops one job moving forward you just move on happily to the next achievable thing.
The positive aspects of living your lifestyle as you are now so outweigh the negatives that there is too much to smile about to be brought down by a missing bolt. The agitation you felt about having to rush off and get it probably also contributed to you buying the wrong one when you did get  to town. 
I live so far from civilization since moving to the jungle i have learned a lot about doing without. It is over 50 miles to the nearest atm machine, let alone shops 🤣 But life is good, and once every 12 weeks I go to town and buy my necessary things. It’s a whole different head space but it’s healthy. 
I wish you had pointed out the exact job you wanted the bolt for as it would have been fun trying to figure out a backwoods remedy.... like wooden plugs and bolts as were used in olden times - houses were built with all wood , no nails or bolts , only wooden pegs and dowels  and they were as strong and long lasting  as any modern building.... totally organic and you can always make them at home as you will always have wood at hand.😉 It would certainly add to your self sufficiency to be able to build in all wood. So yes don’t waste a moment in frustration, negativity or anger at what cant be achieved but move forward with a smile doing what can be done and life will happen in its own good time. Or invite a friend from the city to come for lunch and bring a bolt with them🌴❤️🌈💛🌴🦋

I'm fairly sure pappa is being ironic here, and not actually sad! But keep at it @pappa-pepper, we admire your perseverance towards the off-grid life in the countryside, maybe soon you won't need the hardware store so frequently :)

just try to relax and take it easy @papa-pepper.some days are tough and some aren't and that 's life.we all have our ups and downs.

@papa-pepper everyday above Ground is the Best Day of my Life. I have been telling myself that since October 21, 1990.....One Day at a Time.......

I've seen loads of your vids but this one was pretty damn kool.  It was nice to  see you and the family.  Also kool to hear what you had to say.  Very down to earth and real. Your kids are precious by the way and yeah they love their Dad.  Mine are 4 and 7... got me wrapped up too.  Yes, life is a bitch a lot of the time but it also those tough spots, mistakes and problems that make it worth living.  Look around at what you've done there my brother.  All that via you and yours and the work you've put in.  I'll bet you have so many memories of that place?  I know you already know this but you're a lucky man my friend.    Always enjoy.

You are teaching your children.  Those lessons are priceless.

Powerful Video
@papa-pepper

Heart and Soul...!!!!♡

The long cantaloupe eating part was not long at all...just shows a hard working man taking the time for his kids to share some time making memories eating some fruit! Well done and keep on smiling! 

Admire your tenacity & integrity, @papa-pepper. 
You have inspired me.
Psalm 42 has helped me.
https://steemitimages.com/DQmS75jGysy7Z9h1biPn1mfhvM4ZTVoVKTBugNsbQvXoWT4/C6915146-7124-4C20-BA46-E9430E6D79AF.jpeg
### _[Why are you cast down O my soul?](https://steemit.com/christian-links/@nigelmarkdias/for-i-shall-yet-praise-him-my-help-and-my-god)_
> As the deer pants [longingly] for the water brooks,
So my [a]soul pants [longingly] for You, O God.
2 My soul (my life, my inner self) thirsts for God, for the living God.
When will I come and see the face of God?
3 My tears have been my food day and night,
While they say to me all day long, “Where is your God?”
4 These things I [vividly] remember as I pour out my soul;
How I used to go along before the great crowd of people and lead them in procession to the house of God [like a choirmaster before his singers, timing the steps to the music and the chant of the song],
With the voice of joy and thanksgiving, a great crowd keeping a festival.
5 Why are you in despair, O my soul?
And why have you become restless and disturbed within me?
Hope in God and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall again praise Him
For the help of His presence.
6 O my God, my soul is in despair within me [the burden more than I can bear];
Therefore I will [fervently] remember You from the land of the Jordan
And the peaks of [Mount] Hermon, from Mount Mizar.
7 Deep calls to deep at the [thundering] sound of Your waterfalls;
All Your breakers and Your waves have rolled over me.
8 Yet the Lord will command His lovingkindness in the daytime,
And in the night His song will be with me,
A prayer to the God of my life.
9 I will say to God my rock, “Why have You forgotten me?
Why do I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?”
10 As a crushing of my bones [with a sword], my adversaries taunt me,
While they say continually to me, “Where is your God?”
11 Why are you in despair, O my soul?
Why have you become restless and disquieted within me?
Hope in God and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall yet praise Him,
The help of my countenance and my God.
Psalm 42, AMPC

https://youtu.be/DjNZf878ISQ