Thank you for this amazing post. It's a pain, encapsulated in words. Thank you for letting me see you without armor. I thought that you are a local celebrity. I thought that you are too proud, and intoxicated with success and wealth. But now I saw you as a person. Your pain is close to me. Because I know a lot of pain in my life. Your message touched my heart. So I'm writing this review. I feel your inner strength. You are able to rise above the pain and move on. Why? Because you are able to let go of your attachment. 
When I love someone when I feel a strong admiration from contact with something, I feel like an invisible thread begins to tie me to that person or thing. And now, if a person starts to distance themselves, I feel that the thread tugs my heart. And I feel the pain because of this.
For me it's always a matter of life and death. I feel I can't live without love even for a moment. I don't understand at all why live if not to love. And often the honest answer is: because too much pain. I hope that I can love and be happy. I need to find an object that is not going to be changed by the world. It is difficult but possible. I sincerely wish you find true love and be happy. You are very brave and deserve to live, not burying your heart under the armor. Good luck and love!
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