Thanks for your insights. I would have to agree with you about the fact that the writer seems to feel shame regarding being possibly bisexual. That shame could be a product of cultural shaming, though. To me, it would seem that the writer might be happiest with a woman who is not overtly freaked out by a bisexual man. I think if the writer gets married to a woman who wouldn't accept this about him, then he might be buried in shame. On the flipside, perhaps being lonely was the main cause of the experience? If the writer had a constant supply of sex, one wonders if he would be experimenting with men. It seems to me that his frustration with girls was somehow part of his sexual encounter with the man. A low barrier, it seems.....only the writer knows for sure what he wants.