Hidden Generosity! by sumatranate

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· @sumatranate ·
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Hidden Generosity!
I have been fairly open about my struggles over the last 12-18 months.  

- My family and I moved away from Indonesia, leaving a stable job and a strong community of friends.  We left the childhood home of our kiddos.  The grief is subsiding, but there are still moments when the hurt takes our breath away.
- I struggled with depression while being unemployed for about 4 months.  That was a battle I had never faced before.  There were mornings that it was difficult to wake up.  My family kept me moving forward.  And during that time, I joined the Steemit community.  Having an outlet to write down my thoughts and meeting new people also encouraged me to press forward.
- Then I found a job, which is a huge blessing, but the concerns of providing for my family did not subside.  We are a single income family.  I love that my wife gets to focus on making our house a home and raising our children (and she does too!).  But being a single income family means that we need to make tough decisions about our finances.


![people-2561053_640.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmQNSFmi3bpTLAzgzyKxt2zbrQavLdRmwPARU6cJJ8hi9Y/people-2561053_640.jpg)

One of the houses that we have stayed in since moving back to the United States (we have lived in 4, just in case you were wondering) reached out to me and let me know that we had received mail.  The young lady asked for our new address so that she could pass along what had been collected.

It is always nice to get mail, well most of the time.  I guess that the bills are less than desirable.  One of the envelopes contained a handwritten note from a friend saying that a couple from our church was thinking about us and wanted to give us an anonymous gift.    **This envelope had remained unopened for 7 months.**

My heart still feels overwhelmed that someone cared so deeply for me and my family that they sacrificially gave so that we could be blessed.

A thank you note is long overdue.  Oh, how I wish I could have written words of gratitude much sooner.   Though I will never be able to thank them face-to-face, I hope that my handwritten note will be able to share a bit about what is happening in my heart right now.

I have been able to bless others.  It seems like as of late, I am being taught the lesson of being blessed.  This lesson is indeed beautiful, but I need to make sure that I don't let my pride get in the way.  I allow pride to prevent me from asking for help, for showing my hurt, and from being vunerable.

Oh, how I long for community, a place to be myself with all the wrinkles and blemishes.   I long for a place ...
- to be loved and shared life with other people
- to generously give and humbly receive
- to accept blessings so that I can bless others

Thank you, dear friends, whoever you may be.  I am indeed blessed!

<h1>@SumatraNate</h1>

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@mountainjewel ·
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what a beautiful gift to receive. yes, sometimes we bless and other times we are blessed. if you are a giver, it can be difficult to do the receiving, but it's just the other side of the coin <3  much love to you and your fam
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@steemitcountry ·
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rumah dan keluarga anda adalah sebuah berkat, anda telah memberikan suatu halyang besar pada keluarga anda @sumatranate, walaupun dalam pandangan anda pemeberian anda sangat kecil, tapi yakinlah mereka (keluarga anda) sangat bangga dengan anda). anda adalah terbesar bagi mereka,,
saat anda membantu orang lain, sekecil apapun berarti tuhan membalasnya dengan memberikan keberkahan kepada anda melalui tangan orang lain lagi,,hidup adalah roda, dia berputar, kita tidak selamanya diatas dan tidak selamanya pula dibawah,,
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@steemitnatural ·
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kebahagian terbesar adalah saat kita memberi, maka syukurilah pemberian orang lain kepada kita, karena orang yang memberi kepada kita sangat bahagia saat kita juga bahagia,
anda adalah pahlawan ,,jadi tuhan membekati anda,,yakinlah,,
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@masniaty ·
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Sebuah pengalaman dan perjuangan hidup yang luar biasa @sumatranate. Salut untuk perjuangan anda. Sebagai orang Indonesia, saya bangga anda pernah tinggal di Indonesia.
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@ssimkins9 ·
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Thanks for sharing about your journey, especially the difficult parts. You don't have to search far to see some photo-journalism blog about a "super awesome perfect" cross-country family travel experience. It's actually more refreshing to hear about the pain points. My good friend wrote on his blog this week "Joy is elevatory, but pain is connective."

>Oh, how I long for community, a place to be myself with all the wrinkles and blemishes. 

I hope you are able to find this community. I feel that I have, and it is a game changer (and there's room if you wanted to make another move to Detroit this time ;) but not so easy to find sometimes.
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@arrliinn ·
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We really just have to look at the good side of life- the positivity shall help us move on. There may be undesirable happenings but those shoild not overcome the greater things. We've also been through a rough patch, I still don't know how i kept sane. But I guess positivity and support from friends were the biggest boosters for me. 

Stay blessed @sumatranate and  family.
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@unshakeable ·
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I never knew all of these.I must say after reading all of these I tend to like you even more @sumatranate .I truly want to meet you in person.I am not kidding about that.You are so honest,so human...it's really rare to find people like you out there.Have a nice day!
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@ahlawat ·
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To get a job, you have to make a lot of effort. Your job will start soon.
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@el-nailul ·
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Speechless, We can walk throughout this, time will past and all those things too. what make us stronger is our community. and this world steemit community is something beyond my imagination. I have been through the same thing (not moved to other country), but one thing I am really sure about is there will be always rain after heavy storm @sumatranate

Best regard and keep fighting for something good
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@puroypoi ·
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You are are good person, you will never be walk alone in times of hardships.  God will continue to bless you and people will continue help you. ;)
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