迎新随笔 by tanlikming

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· @tanlikming ·
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迎新随笔
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不知不觉已经活了四十四个年头,
每一年对元旦新年倒数的心情,
由最初的很兴奋,很期待,
到今天的可有可无的心情,
我自己也说不上来啥滋味。
很小时候,
总渴望能像普通人一样的,
正常的去倒数,
正常的家庭聚会,
但我不行,
摆了一辈子的街边,
白领们休息是我们最可能有生意的机会,
怎么可能休息呢?
这个念想,
想到了今天也还没发实现,
想到了我都有自己的孩子了。

今年元旦新年对我来说,
同样的一年比一年的没感觉,
尤其是这几年生意特别不好,
今年更是二十年以来最差的一年。
青少年时期,
我会偷偷的开着我父亲的车,
出去兜风,和朋友在一起,
享受短暂片刻朋友之间的相处,
但是,
代价就是第二天很辛苦,很辛苦的工作,
因为凌晨三点钟回到家,
第二天六点半还得爬起床,
做一个搬进搬出的搬运工作,
还得销售服务顾客,
基本上是没办法偷懒休息的,
直到中午收摊之后,
我还要找朋友继续享受在一起的感觉,
傍晚还得出摊,第二次工作,
你说我多犯贱?

那种生活,
我过了大概十年就开始受不了了,
突然之间慢慢的,
感觉自己像是犯了忧郁症之类的病,
直到有一天,
也可能是最后一块砖头,
我忽然间因为一个很小的事情,
我对着相处很久的朋友大吼,
当然,
结局当然是不欢而散了,
至今二十年没再来往,
你问我可惜吗?我也不知道,
我有想过,也曾经再找他们,
但玻璃出现了裂痕,
就算怎么修补,还是会有痕迹的,
就这样,
整个圈子和我不了了之,
我也因此孤独了一两年,
直到遇见了我的干姐姐为止。

元旦时候特别会想起我的干姐姐,
感情有多深厚吗?
也不知道,
过年过节时候必定会找她喝茶聊天,
我并不是她的全部,
她是所有人的全部,
我只是她的一部份罢了,
我干姐姐交友广阔,人缘特别的好,
不过,她几个月前走了,
估计会人走茶凉吧?

这些年来感觉自己越来越没朋友,
你觉得我悲观吗?也没有,
你不是鱼,
怎么知道鱼在水里开心还是寂寞?
我有一个原则,宁缺毋滥,
这些年,
我只想静静地,
三两个谈得来的朋友聚会聊天已经很满足了。
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@devyleona ·
Happy new year,低潮期 家庭和朋友最重要

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@tanlikming ·
谢谢你
心情的确有点低落

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@devyleona ·
客气。新年快乐

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@kadishakho ·
👍!寧缺勿濫
知己三二個就好
全新的一年祝賀年檔位的生意興隆
心想事成💕

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@tanlikming ·
卡姐
祝福您及所爱新一年里
心想好事成

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@kadishakho ·
加油阿力!
過去的就隨著2018流逝
全新的2019要捉緊跟隨
祝賀阿力與心頭愛加油

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@sunai ·
力哥,新年快樂😊恭喜發財

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@tanlikming ·
三妞
祝福你及所爱吉祥如意,
福慧增长每一天。

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@sunai ·
謝謝力哥

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@tanlikming ·
Thank you esteem team

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@hqy ·
新年猪事顺意!
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@tanlikming ·
贺老师,
祝福您及所爱
新一年里心想好事成

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@zy-sb ·
情绪低落的时候去散步,去看星空。

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@c-next ·
加油,你可以换个方向想,比如随着我们年纪越来越大了,那么以后传来的消息就是朋友逐渐的减少,所以我们应该少教朋友多结交仇人,只要我们活的够久天天都有喜讯
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@tanlikming ·
当这一切确确实实发生在我身上时候,
自己面临着心情抉择的时候,
那种滋味挺难受的。

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