What an amazing journey you are on!  I will pray that God will continue to bless your family. Thank you for sharing your story.

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That's a great story, and you are one of the brave ones called to foster care. I always thought it would be too hard to get attached to a child who would potentially be taken away later. That's why I went right for adoption from foster care. The foster parents out there are heroes. You're one of them. I wish nothing but the best for you and your little family.

That must be unbelievable! I am wishing you the best from Michigan....
I followed :)

Such a great story and you are such a great person for taking two little souls into your home and give them a future!

>For me, I felt a calling to do something more, to be something more, to feel something more. 

I couldn't help but be amazed by your calling to nurture, love, guide and protect little ones that needed to be held. Your heart is precious and your Father loves you. 

Please keep sharing as we await the judge's decision. Agreeing with you in prayer as we do.

From the first sentence of this post I can't get rid of the feeling I have to tell you just one thing: **"DON'T BE AFRAID!"** 

I know it's easy to preach something like that for me, being, listening and looking from aside and not being directly involved. Although I can perfectly understand not only how painful as well exhausting or even depressing might be that uncertain wait, as you said not only not knowing when, but even if. 
Despite all of that, I will repeat again: **"Don't be afraid!"** 

Long ago, as a very young girl, I was told by one remarkable person and priest (who also happens to be and still is, despite his age, one of if not the best theologian in our country or even broader), the following: 
"The devil's most powerful weapon against man/woman is fear!" 

Therefore, I want to add, don't allow him to use it or even poses you through it! 
Remember, no matter what, **through God you are free of every fear!**

I am not married, I do not have any kids or anyone who depends on me. Every time I see a mother with her one, two, three or as many kids I am filled with awe and deep respect for the lady. 

And to top it all people like you goes ahead and adopts a baby. Being a mother to one's own kid is different, the baby is a part of your being but taking care of a baby who is not yours is great.

No matter how many mountains you will have to climb I am sure God will guide you, and you will reach the top and breathe the air of satisfaction.

All the best with the baby and I pray to God that he gives you the strength that you need.

Oh my goodness, you've had your little boy since he was a year and a half...I so, so hope that he is lucky enough to continue to be raised by such a beautiful spirit as yourself.  

Big hugs to you!!

This post explains your  *Running a Race Without a Finish Line* post. I had thought your "little man" had some terminal disease. Not having known anything about you at the time I read that. I'm so glad to be back surfing the feeds of Steemit. I think it's still not the right time for me to do a lot of my own posting...anyway...enough about me.

You, my dear one of @thesimplelife, are finding far too much angst for yourself amongst the obvious joy you're experiencing being a foster parent. You're bravery is noted, your compassion shines a light onto your soul...and you words speak volumes of how to give more of one's self.

You brought me a message in your other post. From a friend who happened by at a time when you were deep in the proverbial valley of fear and doubt. *I am not my diagnosis*. I guess I always knew that but was never able to formulate the thought so succinctly as your friend had. Have you had the chance to hug her for me yet?

I wish to say something to you, so first let me say I do not intend anything more than to hopefully help you smooth out your path going forward. Now nothing is going to be straightforward in dealing with the uncertainty and the bureaucracy of being a foster parent. Or any parent for that matter.

Try to accept the possible fact that you may have to let the "little man" go on to live his life as fate should bring him. Fate has already brought you into his life. As well as into your daughter's.

It seems you'll have little choice in the matter. But you have provided a loving heart and home for two small minds. What you have provided them is priceless and will undoubtedly put them into the next stage of their lives on good and stable footing.

Try not to let worry about such loss that may or may not come. Accept that there are many young souls who may still brighten your heart and home. You have so much to offer. And there are only so many foster parents of your caliber, so many horror stories out there. Take pride that you are able to provide the best care and nurturing possible.

No more sleepless nights worrying about things you have no control over. Keep your heart open for the next child who truly needs you to feed that growing mind and soothe the pained heart of a little one who through no fault of their own finds themselves in a world of stranger.

Their fear is real. Your fear is...if I dare say...unwarranted. Do your best...and to quote something I've heard often and one I think fits nicely with the song "How Sweet The Sound " ... not the five words of your friend...but three words just as wise...(((HUGS)))

                        ~Let go...and let God~ 

p.s. the valleys are not necessarily a place of foreboding. ![Anyway.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmcAFuga27LntGe3m5fhZt9GmY7ny8UXYFPuTFHHNneUdf/Anyway.jpg)
...some are really a place of plenitude...imho <3

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It's one thing for someone to do right by their own offspring, but you have gone out of your way to take on the amazing responsibility of caring for children in need of love.

I ( @thatsweeneyguy ) spent ages 2-4 in foster care (that's a long story for another day), and vividly remember a couple of the families I was with.

Raising children is one of the greatest experiences anyone can have. Best of luck to you and your little ones! 

Thank you for sharing this with the #steemmoms tag!

Thank you for sharing your journey and sharing your heart with these amazing kids. It is so inspiring to hear how you have leaned into the Lord to be your strength and companion in this journey. I understand the strange paradox of joy and pain, confidence and uncertainty. My children spent 3 years deciding whether or not they were going to spend their highschool years living with me or in a different state living with their dad. It was such a challenge everyday to force myself to live in the present good and not get sucked into the gray looming cloud of "what if?" Somedays I succeeded and somedays I failed miserably. I'll be praying for that peace that passes understanding to guard your heart and guard your mind.