Totally awesome and understandable. You're doing a good job. You can always hit some of us up on Discord - I know you're in two servers with me so far. 

My first curie upvote happened about a year ago, when I started sharing my stories for the first time. It's not worth now quite what it was then (53 SBD that time), but that will improve as the price of Steem goes up again. It *has* come up again quite a bit from the low of around 9 a couple months ago.  Again, great job on getting that. 

BTW, since you're new, put your main tag (writing, probably) first. pifc and curie don't need special tags. Once you're on curie's hit list (so to speak), they keep an eye on you, from what I've seen. The minimum space between curies seems to be about two weeks.